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2003-10-26T19:33:00.000-08:00

2003-05-28T15:46:00.000-07:00

ok i swtiched to xanga ....because i just coodnt stand blogger anymore... it kept busting up on me everytime i wanted to change the look.. but xanga is way easier to use..and more fun to play with...user friendly =D... check out my new xanga site...sorry if i yall think ima busta... but i gotta look out for number one ya heard... o btw.. i got the chick to show up !! woo hoo.. say helloooo to adriana lima

hmm.. if you guys even care.. just check the other site n tell me which one is easier to access n read and stuff

2003-05-26T12:37:00.000-07:00

maybe i shood switch to xanga...

2003-05-26T12:36:00.000-07:00

ok.. i have no idea what is going on with my blog.... first when i tried to add stuff to teh template.. the template was blank... so i changed it up..and now its spitting out the ooooooold template i had ........

what to do....what to do....

2003-05-25T18:18:00.000-07:00

its 4:30 am....
im typing this out on simple text..cuz blogger isnt working.....
so how am i able to still b typing at 4:30 in the morning?.. 3 rootbeers...yes..3... and a carrot cake.. is keeping me awake...

today i was a good friend and good brother..its my sisters prom day..and she doesnt no how to drive freeway..and her date doesnt have insurance.. i was spose to teach my sister how to drive freeway..but i didnt have enuff time..so i ended up taking her around town..

today also happens to b angela's bday dinner.. her bday is actually the 13th..but... she celebrated it today...

so while i was running around town with my sister.. i was designing a bday card for angela.. (i hated the hallmark cards..) and after i dropped my sister and her frens off at her prom.. which was up in LA... i drove back to long beach to have dinner with angela and friends...(friends being kim her bf... dani and reneath..chantha..and daro)

then we went bowling..till 12. ( i won with 130.. hehe.. we're not proffessional..but we're pretty good.. it was guys against girls.. angela was bowling drunk..so she was last place..dani fell on all fours.. she says she was "concentrating too hard".. FUNNY SHIT... chantha was first for girls.. i think it was like 117 or 120 something..but guys won =D) ....

and then i went back up to LA to get my sister.. took them all out to dinner..and now im home at 430 in the morning..

long day.. but its cool ... i figured.. im always doing stuff for friends.. and im always there for them.. so can't turn down my own sister when she needs me..

hanging out w/ friends today kept me sane tho.. it was really good seeing all of them together again.. i hadn't seen chantha in like a year.. dani and angela raneatha and kim i saw up in tahoe..daro .. i havent seen since.... angelas bday last year... crap.. long time ....good people.. funny night...

2003-05-19T01:11:00.000-07:00

hmmmm the pic dont wanna show up.. so ima do it later. or something... stupid james bradson... think ur all bad huh..u fucker..FUCK YOU mr adriana lima's agent..

Here is the pic i changed up.

2003-05-19T00:31:00.000-07:00

hmm.. a mr james bradson said i couldn't use the real photo of the beautiful miss adriana lima..so i changed it up.. to make it mine.. um.. does anybody know if im still breaking the law?

2003-05-18T17:52:00.000-07:00

YES.. ok..everything seems to be working... whew... =)..

i changed everything...by myself!!!.. i am html king!..

2003-05-18T02:10:00.000-07:00

ok.. my shits going wierd... sorry

2003-05-18T01:43:00.000-07:00

i think im paranoid... no..wait..thas what they want me to think.....

2003-05-18T01:42:00.000-07:00

hmm..angela turned 21 on the 13th...happy bday twink!... and d turned 21 on the 14th happy bday d dizzl... d is a funny drunk..

d: "i dont think ima make it to that kiss my ass drink"

i need to turn 21... i should build up my tolerance now huh...

2003-05-09T01:31:00.000-07:00

so i know what happened... see.. its like.. i was walking down a hallway.

and i walk into this room.. and theres beautiful decorations everywhere....

so amazed by the decorations.. i thought that it was a party.. for me....

but in actuality..it was just a room with beautiful decorations...

.... sometimes.. great things..are just...great things....

2003-05-07T23:34:00.000-07:00

yeah..good thing about that mountain though..its the highest mountain ill ever have to climb... EVER

2003-05-07T23:28:00.000-07:00

its like.. i was climbing a little hill... and all of a sudden.. i find myself looking down the side of this high ass mountain ... and i had a choice to either go all the way to the top..or jump off......

i ended up getting to the top..

i was at the top ... somebody was there with me.. but.. she didnt wanna b there.. she took her chances.. built a bridge..and got to another mountain.. its ok though..

i was at the top alright.. 'cept..i was alone....... i was lost....... and alone.......i was too high to get down now.. i dont even remember what the bottom looks like anymore... all i know is that i did it...i did it ... and i coodnt go down... ever...again...

so whats the lesson here?... um.. if ure going to climb a hill..prepare for a mountain.. prepare for mountain slides.. and volcanos..and little goats with beards and horns... prepare for rain..and snow..... prepare to go up alone....and come down alone.. prepare for the worse... but hope for the best...

2003-05-06T11:33:00.000-07:00

i joined bally total fitness gym last nite.....
worked out last nite...
got hella sore this morning....

2003-05-04T15:27:00.000-07:00

JELLO was in the UC Irvine Pilipino Culture Nite show last nite it was great! SHES A DIVA!
she did her thing.. and so did we..hehe..she had a little fan club of about 12-15 people... We screamed her name and all of her alias' and she had this huuuuuge smile on her face it was great hehe.

afterwards her parents treated us to dinner, we all tried to fight it.. but her parents are too damn cool and they wouldn't have it.

then later that night us kids went out to kareoke in garden grove. that was really fun, sang till we couldn't sing no mo.... this girl pam was bussn' "a moment like this"(?)... that american idol song. she was pretty damn good.
well i ended up taking my homeboy thourn back home ot long beach, then we drove around the traffic circle... around and around..and we headed back to jellos house.

then i slept on jello's good ol' floor. or at least, i tried to. i probably didn't fall asleep till about 4 or 5......

annnnyyyyway... it was a good night, i got in trouble in the morning, but itll blow over hehe.. good times..good times..

THANKS JELLO.. awesome performance.. =)

2003-05-03T01:25:00.000-07:00

Today was kind of funny, I went to the post-office and scared a bunch of people. My mother needed to send a package to my aunt who lives in dallas, so she asked my dad to bring home a box from the market. The box that he brought home for her to use had all these chinese and thai writing on it. (Its an asian supermarket..get over it) Anyway, so I go into the post office looking really bummy, holding this big box with chinese writing all over it and I had a little cough. (My mom got me sick) And I walk in there and people are staring at me up and down. This guy even gave me a dirty look, and shook his head!!!! I can be paranoid, I admit it, but when people are 3-5 feet away from you..all around, then you either stink, or have SARS. I didn't stink!

So afterwards my brother came up to long beach from irvine, and we went to go watch Xmen 2!!! awesome movie! go see it!!! Then we came out, and I laughed at a guy because he had an umberella inside the theatre, still open. Then I finally came to my senses and figured out IT WAS RAINING!!.. Me and my brother were in jeans and a tshirt. It was a wet walk back to the car.

The rest of the day is a blurr, I was a blob in front of the idiot box.

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Hmm, sometimes, late at night, I forget details of the day, and I start to think, how many times has this day happened already.

2003-05-02T00:40:00.000-07:00

hehe.. i could talk to you forever

2003-05-02T00:38:00.000-07:00

so its like that tingly feeling you get.. but its really your guts being ripped out.. and spilling onto the floor.. and your hands are tied behind your back..so you cant even stop the disgusting gush.. of red mush... that flows from ure belly.....

its like.. the rays of the sun.. but when it is in your eyes.. on the freeway going 90 miles per hr.. waiting for an accident to happen....

like a love letter..... cast in the fire..before it was ever read.. .burning to ash.. never to be repeated again.. never to be recorded...

i wish i was numb.....i need a big shot of novacaine.... right in the brain.. to keep me sane..

there was this good guy..he was a nice guy...... idiot...

2003-04-26T18:01:00.000-07:00

hmm.. my blogs dont seem to publish...hope this one goes through...

anyway.. i should blog more........i miss my friends... i went to sb to hang out with my homegirl jennifer mok... and her sorority sisters... it was a date night .....thing... hehe... a lil shin dig... they did little events and stuff.. then we started drinking.. then we started singing..and dancing..and yeah..hehe

SB is fun... everybody should go there at least once in their lives...hehe

tonight im goin to a friends birthday get together ... more drinking.....

hmm.. i should really turn 21.....

2003-01-20T21:04:00.000-08:00

20th day here...... in garland TX ..

b back in cali in 26 days............

hmm..what did i do today...... slept in as always....i hate the time difference....im still not used to central time.....grr.....hmm ..i raked my aunties yard..it hasnt been raked all yr.......2 hrs and 10 bags of leaves later, we finished...it finally got hot over here......next on the TO DO list... clean the garage...wasnt cleaned in at laest 3 yrs... it used to fit 2 cars..now it barely fit 1...... that took about 3 hrs........after that i took a pizza break........ then...... took care of my cousin stephens hair... chopped that bitch off... HAHAHA... yeah..i cut that shit..looks nice... he was lookin apish b4.... but now..he looks liek..well..me!...hahaha.. i usually only cut my hair..so when i cut for others.. it always comes out like my head hahahaha... whew..long day............

oh..last nite i watched akira (thank you HBO)....the whole thing..finally!!.... it was great.. i love that movie... ima burn me a copy one day..and make a whole dvd thing for it... the details in that movie was...booooomb ass.......

2003-01-16T14:28:00.000-08:00

my brain shuts down when i want to accomplish something
the want to take action...is there, but the ideas are dammed
i wake up in a mess, my mind is fogged with random thoughts
incoherant
my ideas cross my brain like they are losing control on a freeway
a pileup of old and new thoughts, lost thoughts, drowned imagination
my thoughts dont come to me anymore, they dont tug at my shirt
dont call my name, dont even leave a message,
i am out there looking for them, flipping through the fonebooks
looking for clues, its a mess......
i dont remember how i used to do it, all i no is that it is different
everything is different, my ideas, my likes, my dislikes, my life, my frens even my family
different
i want to grow up so bad, and get out, but stay close, but not too close,
its a bothersome struggle, a fight to the finish, old and new, clean and dirty
what the hell am i talking about? i dont understand myself, that is the problem
i realized that most of my life i thought i was somebody, only to find myself change
most of my life, i was trying to figure out who i would b in ten years, not realizing i never
really know who i am now.
i always say, ive got to figure out who i am first, then my style and everything will fall into place
but i get it now, i am me.... my styles, my everything, is me.. that is who i am, the always changing
the random thoughts, the fucked up imagination, that is me..................... i get it now.........
but then.... everything is me.............. the not being able to really commit to a design, that is me
the never being able to do something....TRUELY for myself, that is me..........the good and the fuckin bad
shit...........
this does not help at alllllllll.........

i need to do some thinking.............

2003-01-12T15:28:00.000-08:00

ok....... been about....... two.........damn long........

im in dallas right now..actually.. garland texas..which is like a few miles from dallas TX........
im here taking care of my aunt, ive been here since new years...

surrounded by little cousins........ i need some friends my age.....im going insane.....

its snowing now, so that means, even more time at home..................yay

i met a girl named hoang, shes really cool,.. or she seems cool, but shes leaving back to college tommorrow.......... sucks my one friend here in dallas and shes already leaving.......

my cousins are cool though, dont give them enough credit, i live wiht my cousin peter and stephen.. peter is 9 and stephen is 13..... im kind of over the whole, big brother thing. since me and my sister are more like cool friends than siblings these days........ but i cant help but feel like a big brother here.. its ok though...

hmm more blog later.. im so bored..maybe ill go make a snowman.

2002-11-12T02:06:00.000-08:00

i have evolved...
meaning..become better..more realistic.. if that means i have become more cynical.. and "fucked up".. then so be it.. i feel better.. i dont feel fake..and i am happier

so..who cares?...

nobody prolly.. but for those of you who are slightly interested....and u wonder.. how did i come to this realization?.. funny enuff..through my aim conversations..... i noticed that when i leave.. i say gnite.. and bounce.. or.. later... and bounce.. i dont wait for responses..or hope that pple care.. i jus.."assume" that they do.. i also noticed that i dont write stupid shit like..stay sweet... or kit.. or.. sweetdreams... take care ....for me......... yes.. i used to b sappy..fuck off......ok.. for the pple who write that stuff..and are offended by me callin it stupid shit.. um.. think about it.. do u really care that much?.. do u really wish for pple to have "sweetdreams?" give me a break......

sappy sucks..

ive been an ass lately..maybe cuz i got all this pent up anger from shit goin on at home..or maybe its just the real me..finally bursting out.. i hope my frens dont hate me.. too long haha...

2002-11-02T01:15:00.000-08:00

special request...

this is to my tze tze.. tami......... hi tami...

so a lot of shit has been happening..good shit ...and bad...
this quarter at school.. is raelly relaxed..teachers are chill.. frens are cool.. and me..well.. im gitting lazy.. but for good reason..

see.. the other day.. i created a presentation..for this guy im working for..to present to the dodgers..and..well..we got the account..well..almost.. gotta do another presentation...but the fact that they asked us to come back..is a big plus..so.. im excited...so yeah..thas a good thing..

my portfolio class...is a bad thing..see.. all the classes b4 this class was.. heres a fake company..try to think of ways to promote design..and sell .......that was easy.. it wasnt personal..they teach u not to be personal...but now.. i gotta create a portfolio.. filled with pieces that i feel are my strengths.. and its very personal..i want to show it up..pop it out with a bang.. but im scared to.. for some reason.. i avoid it...like fuckin right now.. instead of working on pieces for the portfolio..im typing out a fuckin blog...but its ok..cuz im tight at what i do.. and i will git it done..jus gotta give me some time.. to focus..

another thing this quarter is.. everybody i hang out with has somebody .. or close to having somebody..and my chances of meeting new pple..are pretty slim if all my friends are w/ somebody.. its hard .. but its my choice..so ima deal with it...

hmmmm.. yeah.. i dont feel like gitting all emotional..and start talking about fate and destiny and all that..so ima jus end with.. right now.. a bunch of oppurtunities are coming my way..all exciting ones..but... the none that has said..this is what u are going to do for the rest of ure life..so.. i feel that i am still searching... wish me luck..im out

2002-09-21T23:31:00.000-07:00

HEEY!!,,,
im fuckin back!!.. i havent come on this thing for over a month.. jus cuz school was soo overwhelming..it was like a tidal wave and it ate me up... but yeah.. a lot of things have stareed to happen..and im getting hooked up left and right.. first of all tho.. i finished my 2rd quarter.. 2nd year ... so one more quarter and ill have an AA in graphic design.. and ill b out of school..

a couple weeks ago..me n the squad went up norht..to sanfrancisco..it was the bomb.. i mean the city was great..the pple are nice..gay.. no girls really tho... um.. the scene was jus hip.. really nice... and chill.. cold in the morning and at night.. sunny in san jose tho..but yeah..the trip wasnt even about gitting up north..it was GOING up north..jusdriving there with the squad.. being together.. for 3 days.. jus hanging out..doing whatever we wanted..it was so fun.. and funny.. i love my pple!.. theyre awesome.....we made a lot of memories.. ill post up the pictures soon......hehe

hmm and oh yeah.. i got a job..well kinda.. my frens boyfren hooked me up with some design gigs..and im actually gonna git paid..so thas prolly what ill b doin during my break.. they always hook me up with crazy tickets..to events..and i usually cant go..but i wanted to go to this hip hop concert..jus cuz i havent ever been to a hip hop concert b4.. it was called the SHOWi saw SUPER NATURAL.. beat nuts!.. MYSTIC... um... ALKAHOLIKS... crazy.. but yeah.. the music was cool..the pple were cool.. o man.. EVERYBODY WAS HIGH!!!!.. i went with my fren samnang.. cuz my izl squad pple were busy.. but yeah.. we were up in the front..and it was too hot..and iw as totally gittin high off the smoke in the air.. and so we go to the back..and they have these lights up..and u see this huge cloud of smoke hovering over the pple..it was soo funny.. the music was crazy.. it was fun..and at the end.. the LIKS got these girls up on stage..and they started chanting.. git butt naked.. and so these girls start flashin the crowd.. fuckin tits.. hot tits too..hahahhaha.. it was hilarious!!.. i had a good time.. although i got super tired..i think it was the weed..hehe..everybody was blazing.. SUPERNATURAL,, was rappin about everything.. he turned into other rappers..and did their voices..and then he made pple hold up things..and he rapped about them..and he rapped about a blunt..and got a security guard to smoke it!..haha.

..but yeah life is good right now.. i got great frens.. doin good in school.. learning something new everyday.. got a job... got a break.GOT A FRO ,,,hehe.....whats there to complain about..hehe.. life is great.........

2002-08-27T09:17:00.000-07:00

hm.. it has come to my attention that nobody reads this blog.. it isn't a surprise.. nor is it a dissapointment.. i enjoy writing about my day... what does it matter that nobody is interested in it....

so the train was stopped today... there was an accident at the slauson stop..that stopped the trains from passing that stop.... so i decided to hop back on the train to long beach..... it was basically an hours worth of book reading time..........

hmmm.. just got a phone call.. my mom.. she thought i didnt come home last night..(i did go home.. just got back kind of late...11:15?)..... its kind of funny that she calls me this morning.. after she has gone to work.. for about an hour now.... suddenly she realizes that hey.. her second born was nowhere to be seen last night... maybe i should call..hee hee...actually it was my dad who realized he hadn't seen me............... or at least..he didn't remember seeing me.. cuz i woke him up on the couch.. and we interacted.... and i went into my bedroom...he just forgot.... .... they know my door is unlocked.. this whole mix up could have been easily avoided if they had just took a peek in my room to see if my body was in my bed...... hehe.. my parents like to be complicated......

so where was i.. at jellos house!!.. hehe.. i was there from 2-11 !!!!!!!.. what was i doing in irvine a day before a school day??.. uh.. well..it started with lunch at 12:40..... jello and her ex roomie. invited me over for lunch.. and i was given the honor of providing the drinks.. so i brought four 2 liter bottles of soda from von's... 5 dollars..... jello made chicken wings.. good stuff..and D DAWG.. ( her ex roomie).. made hard rice...yum..D dawg brought betsy..aka boss.. also.. she eats slow... after a while of complaining and doing nothing.. i took d dawg and boss home.. and me n jello then took lynn to the library.. lynny finally got her library card.. and she checked out 3 books.. and we got some free books outside.. then instead of going home.. i decided to waste away on the couch with jello.watching show after show after show.. then we got hungry.. and so jello said..hey we should go to jerry's deli.. u ever been there?.. no.. ok.. less go.. ok.. and then we sat there for a while.. (its hard to tear away from the television... it was a good episode of friends...PIVOT!...PIIIVVVOOOOTTTT)... and so we went.. had a good dinner..got stared at by a patron sitting in the booth next to ours.. i realize that i am irresistable to look at.. but geez.. i was eating a hamburger.. leave me alone.... after dinner.. we went back to jellos..and instead of going home..this is about 9:30... and i said.. ill leave at 10... and we started talkin.. 10 went by .... 1015 came up.. wow.. ok.. ill leave soon...... and we talked and tlaked... ok.. so its 11... maybe i should go.....

hehe.. it was a long day......me n jello often talk about nonsense.. this and that.. trivial stuff.. stuff to make us laff outloud.. for long periods of time.. but yesterday.. i dunno if it was the chicken wings .. or what.. but we had intelligent conversations.. well.. to us it was intelligent conversations.. maybe to the regular intelligent pple.. our conversations were ... shit.. but to us.. we felt smart after we educated each other on stuff.. it was funny of course.. can't get away from being funny with jello.. but.. it was half serious too.. all in all..it was a CHILLAX day.. not a waste of a day.. but a good..hanging out day =)..

ok.. i slept at 3.. woke up at 640 this morning......sat on a train with 50 million people complaining.. one way.. then 50 million pple complaining the other way.. all in a span of one hour.. i am tired and beat.. and i just wrote an essay.. that nobody will read.. i think i deserve a nap............... Zzz

2002-08-18T01:56:00.000-07:00

if u git me in the right moment.. i can be serious..

most of the time tho..im just horny...hehe.....ahem..sorry

2002-08-18T01:50:00.000-07:00

hm.. i read some blogs the other day, and it seems that people are so serious...

either they are depressed.. or infatuated with tomorrow. it makes me all serious.. for the moment at least.
i dunno.. i was thinking the other day....., the person you are tomorrow, is shaped by the person you are today. so basically.. the choices that i make later on are influenced and decided on by the experiences that i go through now.

so i guess it would be safe to say that the less experiences you go through the less change you will go through.. right?

so excluding those people who hide in caves, and get chained to a bed, it is pretty much impossible not to change. not to go through some kind of experience right? even the littlest thing that affects you, will change you.. subconsiously it will influence what you will do.

these past few months.. ive been having a blast. no drama.. no stress. no real bull shit that i couldnt solve in 24 hrs or less. my mind has been clear, my life has been real good. ......... it has been safe... meaning... i thought there were no real NEW experiences.. so maybe the person i am tomorrow.. will still be good and happy. ive become a more happier person, that can view the world beyond my personal self and can look past today and see years and years ahead. and years from now, i see that i am happy. partly because i no that later in life, when i come to a choice that i have to make, im not going back to the past beyond this point in my life to draw out an answer. because i made those huge mistakes of taking things personal, and creating drama from nothing.. i am going to get the answers from these past few months .. they have been such a humongus impact on my life that i no that it will make me a better person tomorrow.

i just woke up from a 2 hr nap.. so if i sound a lil WOO HOO.. its cuz im still half asleep.

oh.. so a few weeks ago, me and my frend kristy were talking about some crazy shit during our 4 hr break in between classes.

one topic that came up was existence. hehe.. imagine that.. two graphic design students having a conversation about the meaning of existence over subway sandwiches.

well.. i said something like. u dont exist if u dont rite anything down. or rather.. if there is no record of u being alive.. then at one point.. you will not have existed. (i heard that somewhere) yeah there will be those people you know now.. that you talk to all the time and u interact with..that when u die.. they will say, hey there was that guy that did this and that.. remember? remember?.. yeah yeah.. ok... but soon they die.. and if nobody knew u were alive..then did u ever exist at all?.. ok.. so it sounds corny right...kristy thought so

then i brought up heroshima.. ok.. a whole city was wiped out.. with the atomic bomb.. now.. we all no that heroshima was there..and that there were people living there.. and in half a second they were evaporated into atoms .. well imagine if every record of a man.. lets call him mr man... if mr man had all his records kept in a building in the center of town... and only wrote to people in heroshima.. and then.. if every record of his life had been blown away..and then every person he ever new or talked to evaporated.. then.. to us.. he did not exist.

kinda dramatic isnt it?..sorry if me using heroshima was a bad example.. im just staying true to what i said that day.

but yeah i was thinking.. if i stick around .. and only talk to a select few.. then i am jeapordizing my existence... so i NEED to go out..... to meet and interact with more and more people..or just becoming famous and have a lot of people that i was here AM here.. that is the ONLY way i can solidify the fact that i existed here on earth. hehe..isnt it?? ....hehe..that is the ultimate excuse to go out...hahaha

2002-08-18T00:45:00.000-07:00

hmm..it didnt let me publish the other day... but it let me post..hmmm

2002-08-15T14:13:00.000-07:00

ah.. i have one more hour before class.. then i have to endure 2 hrs and 45 minutes of my after effects class..which isnt all that bad.. but im tired..and i wanna go home... i think im going out with jello and lynn and lynns homee..to fashawis..which was officially named spot of the year last week and was claimed by the izl squad.. but its ok.. we can share.. its a dope spot..hope tonite is fun...

lesse.. i started working out again.. some guy at a vitameatavegimen store swindled me into buying a weight gainer and creatine..hehe.. i ended up taking a digital picture of myself ..in boxers (tee hee).. and i posted my skinny ass on my desktop as a daily reminder..this is what u look like bitch....i put arrows and stuff.. to point out what i need to work on (ie: you need to get rid of these chicken legs).. i usually work out and then quit..because i am lazy..its my nature.. like yours is to read blogs....you just cant help it right?!... so yeah.. hopefully in a month..ill see some results..hehe..actually..hopefully i can stick to it for a month..=P

so today i had a project due.. i had to design a logo for a fake company.. and i worked on it and everything..and i even skipped working on these ruff drafts for the next project.. to finish this one.. and what do u no..the teacher..for the first time in his career..took the day off... (to go to an adobe fair or something).. and we were allowed to turn in the project tomorrow... but we had to turn in the ruffs today. =\.. well.. that sucked........ but im over it...

wow.. that was 3 hrs ago.... and i still have one more hr to go.... im dying pple..and aim isnt working on this computer............................. oh well...

ima take a nap.......

2002-08-12T00:05:00.000-07:00

i went out last nite.. for my fren Susan's birthday.. went to 3rd st. promanade.. and then to this chinese resturaunt.. fun nite i guess.. it was kinda different.. not as fun as jan's bday tho... but i got home at like 2:40.. and i had coffee..so i was up till like 4....

today i woke up at 2:30.. hehehe.. i love doing that.. i barely get to.. hehe.. but instead of doing anything for school.. i did something for myself.. i made a cover for my iPod.. this is prototype 2.. i already made the perfected version.. but it was minor stuff.. but yeah.. its perfect..hehe..cheap.. easy to put together.. and its light weight.. ima make sommore later.. put graphics on it n stuff.. yeah. making stuff that works.. makes me happy.. hehe...

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2002-08-10T19:39:00.000-07:00

we celebrated jas birthday yesterday.. it was pretty fun.. we were having a lil trouble with the whole ... "where ya wanna go?...".. situation.. but we figured it out.. we ended up at claim jumpers.. pigged out on two ore carts..and some other stuffs...then afterwards.. we had to figure out.... where to go..we decided on goin to fashoweez.. (SP).. it was awesome.. its a hooka spot.. evabody was mad chil there... the owner was this bald ..kinda thick dude.. he was all nicely dressed n stuff.. and they had a DJ.. playing all sorts of jams..dope music.. and then they cleared the tables.. and like cleared the floor..and the owners like..cmon pple.dance....aight..ill start..and HE STARTS BUSSIN moves!!..it was sooo cool..he was doing windmills..and back flips and front flips..just off the wall stuff..then this guy comes in from the side.. cmon cmon.. and he jumps on him...and the owner starts spinning THE GUY ON HIS HEAD!!.. doin the helicopter..it was soo friggin dope..and theeeennnn.. evabody was kinda just break dancing..and somebody started poppin..and the izl squad was like..go steven gooo.....so i jumped in after this one guy..and started bussin.. and i got props..it was fun..we were there for a good 3 hrs.. it was just too cool to leave..they had like 2 break dancing sessions.. some more pple came..and this guy named QUIZ.. started freestyling..he was soo dope..he freestyled over 2 tracks and a half.. or so.. thas a good 5-6 mins.. he was just tite..all in all..it was a good nite..its alwawys good when we kiggit together.. we dont do it as often as we did b4..but no matter what..we always end up having fun when we ARE together.. so.. cool cool...HAPPY BDAY JAN..

2002-08-08T01:22:00.000-07:00

HEY EVERYONE!!.. its JAN DAO's birthday!!.. HAPPY 20th!!!!.. love ya much daoBALLZZZZ!!!!
-LOVE,
ya squad!

2002-08-07T17:12:00.000-07:00

soo.. remember..my sister was gonna buy that car.. we went to LONG BEACH honda..and the car sales man there..SOUNDED LIKE ROSS!! from friends..hahahhaa.. yeah.. just remembered..it was hilarious. me and my sister were rolling.. ..ok... good memory..

2002-08-03T03:05:00.000-07:00

so i made the guy in my style guide (for school) asian... or.. mixed.. or something..but yeah.. sorta asian.. which one is better?...yeah yeah.. the one iwth the face has some uncolored pieces..git over it.. tell me..skin tone?..color of clothes?.. (note: the character likes hip hop.. and lives and walks around downtown LA.. that is why i changed the race..and the colors...)

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2002-08-02T10:57:00.000-07:00

agh... ok.. i havent been blogging as regularly..cuz ive been busy with school.. bound to get busier... partly because of the more work the teachers are piling on..and another part because of these alumnis that came to visit.

.this one guy that came from blind designs..was a really cool guy.. and he just inspired me to get my best stuff out there..not that my stuff wasn't my best already..but yeah.. he told me to get out htere..and get some work.. do some graphics ...i wanna start asking for misc. jobs.. screw money.. i got all this time.. might as well get known...

im also gonna apply for work study at school.. its this scholarship store we have.. that would be kinda fun... not a lot of guys applying for this job.. so i think im pretty much in.. but yeah.. i spend too much time and money...going to school..only 1 class in th emorning... tues and weds.. and on thurs..i go for 3 hrs.. have a 4 hr gap..then another class at 3.. it bites......it feels like such a waste..might as well get paid for it...

so i got this project going... its pretty fun... i get to make up characters and create a style guide for it.. there was this job..that i had applied for..and got a ..no call back..but yeah..basically it was the same job..oh well for them.. its their loss..hehe.. thas what i like to say.. to make myself feel better..well these are my characters...

I have a story for them, but it still needs to be refined...the title so far is.. life on the beats..... ill post that up later... btu yeah.. my teacher was impressed with the drawings..but then she said somethign like.. how the characters are great..but they dont match.. its like..they wouldn't belong int he same cartoon.. winston is too realistic..and merlin is too cartoonish.. so i gotta change it.. ill post the changes up later also...

fun stuff huh?.. its hard shit though.. graphic designers job is to make crazy shit.. but make it look easy to do...=D..

alright.. off to start my day.i went to bed at 4am ..and woke up at 6am ..then came home from school at 9 pm.. loooong day.. but yeah.. i slept till 10 today..so im up n about... oh yeah!!.. go rent WAKING LIFE.. it is awesome shit...makes u think like crazy.. and its not your typical film.. great stuff.. check it out....

2002-07-27T02:50:00.000-07:00

so we went to watch austin powers tonite.. MOLAH MOLAH MOLAH... funny movie..cheesy..corny.. horny.. austin powers.. what u expect...... yeah then we went COSMIC bowling tonite..we as in the izl squad.. it was the four of us ...glow in the dark balls.. and glow in the dark pins...need i say more?....

oh i bumped into an old frend today..and shame on me..i forgot his name..i actually claled him another name.. when i introduced him... geez...im such a fuck....but it bugged me so much.. i was having full conversations with the guy..and i didnt no his name.... looked through the year book when i got home... (cuz it bugged me so much..).. its nalee.. (nay-lee) .. u dont see a nigga for 5 years.. your lucky if u remember his face.. geez.. but yeah.. i hate it when that happens.. hehe..

good nite tonite.. i love my pples.. =D

2002-07-22T18:14:00.000-07:00

its out of my liiiiiife...
its oooouuuuttt of my liiiiiife...
i dunno whether to laaaffff..or cry.
. i dunno whether to liiiiiiive or diie...
. and it cuts like a knife....
...iiittsss ooutt of my liiiiiiiife...
..(the fro..has left the building...all gone..)

2002-07-22T03:06:00.000-07:00

so why am i blogging at 3 in the morning?.. cuz i had a long day earlier.. i went to go car shopping with my sister..we went to compare the toyota rav 4 and the honda crv.. although aesthetically.. the rav 4 got more points.. size..and safety were more appealing in the crv...also the salesman made a big difference too.. the toyota dealer was being a total sleezeball.. asking all the rong questions and being super fake... "so you guys must be loaded"....in other words..."we are soo gonna rip you off..SUUUCKER"... both of the salesmen at the 2 dealerships were named mark.. the honda dealer was super nice..kinda fake..but more proffessional..i trusted him more.. he showed us all the features..offered us a test drive..and gave us super details on the vehicle... unlike the toyo dealer.. blah... i give my vote to the crv.. my sister likes it too..so i guess thas gonna b 3 hondas in this family.. all LXs too i think..so yeah..after that we went to a hospital to visit a relative.. my mom took a long time to talk.. us kids my bro n sis n me.. went to hang out in the halls... i hate hospitals... well..by the time we got home.. i was tired.. i ate some food..and fell asleep at 6.. woke up at 12 am.. and now.. im screwed.........3 in the morning..WIDE awake.. eating noodles and drinking soda... to further fuck up my systems...=D... but i did clean up my room..and am getting ready to do some reading..and do hw.. hmm.. maybe fucked up sleeping and eating habits will create better study habits and a cleaner environment.. hehe.. lifes full of ironies........

2002-07-22T02:58:00.000-07:00

so me anthoyn and jello were called up by jan to kiggit on friday..but jan- aka daoballs- was stuck in la.. so the 3 of us decided on pickin her up.. it was a long trip.. filled with dangerous curves and crazy surprises but we ended up in LA at around 1040.. jan came down with a load of laundry and a tiny purse.. and we headed off ...

we wanted to go bowling..but that wasnt happening.. because at 11 o clock.. its cosmic bowling.. (cosmic bowling is when the lights are turned off.. and the pins glow in the dark.. and u basically bowl blind with loud music..... and the alley charges u 18 for the rest of the nite..) and so that woulda been 18 bux for about 2 n a half hrs.. not worth it.. so we drove around n around..until we thot of eating..seeing how there were no movies at that time.. hehe..

we ended up at dennys.. hungry for desert... we ordered pie...choco chunka motha funka or something .. and we pigged out.. i had a cappachino too....so... yeah.. we were super hyper.. i stayed up all nite that nite.. my sleeping habits are still pretty messed up.... but it was fun...frens with pies are always good frens...

2002-07-14T01:06:00.000-07:00

so tonite i went to hot import nights...with anthony and betty.... it was pretty booty..although there were some sick ass cars.. they were all fixed up.. too much for me.. but it was aight.. girls were ugly.. most of them anyway..cute ones dindt have body..ones with bodies didnt have face..sad... im over it... hehe.. who am i to judge..

betty brought her frend.. cuz her boyfrend coodnt go.. damn..it was soo fuckin annoying... her voice..her ditzyness.. i wanted to lose her and leave her at the convention center.. i was hoping shed find her frens and DISS us.. i was praying she wood.. but she didnt.. aghhh....

annoying...

oh and after we dropped off the annoying frend..we all went to in n out .. and i bumped into my ooooold fren from middle school..an OG from goofymob..which is this click me n my frens started back in middleschool.. it was soo fun.. we had the whole school in our stupid click.. and we all had the most retardedest names.. i was NIPPO.. my frend aws donut..my other frend was flashlight!..haha.. and this girl..who i thot was beautiful..she wanted to join our crew..so my frend gave her the name snowflake..cuz she was rpetty pale..hehe.. jane heng..if u out there.. i thot u was hot.... for an 8th grader.. woo hoo.. hehe

anyway.. my sister turned 17 yesterday.. happy bday seeesta... shes almost 18....scaree....

i went to watch road to perdition with jan and jello last nite.. good movie.. it was fun .. i dont relaly hang out with jan dao.. shes always studying in la... itll prolly b a while b4 i see her again...

geez.my blogs have no substance.. i cood talk about the izl squad all day..but.. we barely hang out anymore.. and i dont have drama to complain about.. i jus got school and hanging out..hehe.. bleh.. ima live to be 100 years old.. and bored..hehe..

2002-07-13T12:26:00.000-07:00

hip hopp horray...HOE...HAAAEEY HOOOOO....

hehe.. my hip hoppers cool =D..gotta love my jpegs...

2002-07-10T22:41:00.000-07:00

so i went to school a day early......i was stupid.. i thot yesterday was the 10th..so i got up early.. got to school.. lalala... DOH... i was at the train station in long beach.. and before i got on the train i bought a ticket... and on it, in bold black print... JUL 09... i sat down.. and opened a book up..and started reading.. and i put that ticket with the date on it.. as a book-mark... then i read and read and read on the train.. then when i got off..i started walkin to the escalator.. and right above me it said.. this message is brought to you by METRO transit.. today is tues. july 9th........ i glanced at it..and kept on walking.. and it finally hit me when i was in the elevator.. and there wasn't anybody but me... and an old lady.....all those little signs came to me.. loud and clear and i asked...scuse me.. do you no if today is the first day of school.. she laffed and said.. today is orientation.. tomorrow is the first day of class... sorry.....DUM DUM DUM... i take the elevator back down and go home...

anyway... i went home and took a nap..then i went out with my big sister in LA..tami.. shes not erally my sister.. she just act like she is..ive nown her for like 6 years.. she takes care of me when im down.. i try to be there for her too ... but yeah..shes like my first internet frend..and we've only hung out like.. 4 times.. which is kinda sad..haha.. but yeah we hung out..and i finally met lily.. shes cool too.. we ate and ate... or at least ..i did.. then we went around old town pasadena.. fun day..

well today.. TODAY was the real first day of class...and i have the hardest class in the world.. graphic licensing.. which is a class that teaches you how to make characters and stuff for packaging and stuff... theres only one big project..which is to make a style guide.. this is like.. my favoritest thing to do..its not gonna b easy..but it sure will be fun.. i have all my fave classes this quarter.. too bad its gonna b a really hard quarter.. i got web design.. logo symbol... graphic presentation.. and graphic licensing.. wooo hooo... if this is jus jibber jabber to you.. please continue to the next paragraph....

so i came home and my mom wanted to go to a herbal specialist.. we first stopped at my cousins house..my cousins are way older than me n my bro n sis.. they have kids and stuff.. when we arrived.. my twin nephews (mathew and andrew) were running around.. and my uncle was chillin..and everybody was just watching a cambodian concert or something on tv.. i ended up playing pillow fight with my lil nephews..theyre both 5.. its soo funny cuz theyre soo weak..but have soo much energy.. well .. after 30 mins of jus totally wiping them out.. they ganged up on me..and they had like 10 pillows on them..and then POP.. the smiles kinda faded..and this look of shock came over them..mathew just went on laffing..but andrew..his eyes kinda widened..mouth trembled... then...his eyes shut tight.. clenched his teeth..and WAAAAHHHHH ... dude..i felt soo bad.. but i was laffing..it was funny.. anyway...hes ok.. he was jus mad he got beat up!..hehe.. well i had a late lunch then we were off to the proffessor....

..i was very very VERY skeptical at first..his house was pretty cool.. he turned a room into an office.. really cool place actually.. right when i walked in his "office".. i smelled something ...herbal.. .. very herbal.. soo herbal.. i thot it was weed.. i almost slipped and said..is that weed?..to my cousin..but i cant let her no i no what weed smells like....and for all u FBI pple reading up on me... i really dont no what weed smells like...=D.......well .he looked at my moms toungue.. hmm..teeth marks..suggests that there is a weak spleen.. ah.. and rashes on the side.. liver problem.. blah blah to me..but he made some kind sense.. talked about water rentention and a hot heart.. my aunt has some blood stagmatism or something.. and this and that.. and then he read my toungue..and looked at my spine..and my lips and eyes n stuff.. and i have a somewhat...weak spleen as well.. and a semi weak liver.. i dont have enuff fluids..and i shoudl not drink cold drinks too often..he explained to me that there is nutrition and chemicals..or soemthing.... and there is heat and energy.. my heat level and energy level are a lil above normal but overall good.. and i should not worry about that.. but my nutrition and fluids n stuff.. it is lower..so.. i must increase this..to gain a balance in my system.. something like that.. well anyway.. he ended the session with us all buying his herbal products...=\.. ima try it..won't hurt.. kinda fun even..

and that was my day..tomorrow. i go to school again..yippy..finally..some hw to fill my time...

2002-07-04T20:49:00.000-07:00

inspire me...

2002-07-04T01:23:00.000-07:00

the 4th is upon us pple...

fireworks.... woopi... dogs barking... fire in the sky..fire in the sky!!...

i dunno.. this whole independence thing.. i just cant get all excited n stuff..
my mommy wont let me play tommorrow.. scared terrorists are gonna blow us up into smitherines (SP)....

so lesse..whats happened lately.. i went on a job interview.. anthonys girlfren gave me a number for this lady who was an fidm alumni looking for an illustrator... i went for an interview..and she looked at my resume..for 2 seconds..then made me draw for 2 hrs!!.. then she told me our styles conflicted..i agreed.. it wasnt my thing..but she was really cool... i wanna ask for an internship.....maybe...anyway.. the initial rejection wasn't all that bad.. i am more ... i guess the word would be.. annoyed.. no ..dissapointed..at the fact that i cut my hair and tucked in my shirt for that interview...=(... i miss my hair...but im cool..ill find another job =D

i saw that minority report movie the other nite.. at the edwards theatre at fashion island.. o man.. that theatre is crazy.. humongus..the movie was great too..hehe...tonite i watched MIIB ...sucked ass.. well.. cept for the ball chinnian part!!.hahahaha...btu overall a waste of money..

hmm... ive been hanging with jello n anthony a lot lately... JAN GIT URE ASS DOWN HERE!! and play!... =)

summers been a bummy time .....been chillin a lot..hehe........hmmmmmm........ ima go chill sommore....blah!

2002-06-28T03:23:00.000-07:00

hehe.. jan wrote in my guestbook... she makes me sound so cocky.. I AM THE MAIN LINK TO ALL!!.. hehe... actually somebody told me that i brought and held the group together .. i believe it too.. kinda....but.. i didnt realize that until somebody mentioned it to me.. i kinda hope that isnt true.. i hope that our group of frens can survive in case i can't b there.. i want to have a crew to come home to.....=)..............

2002-06-26T01:47:00.000-07:00

so i went out today... pretty much all day.. went to eat at TGIfridays with betty.. then went to office depot to look at comp tables..and then went to costcos to jus.. buy beef jerky... theeeennn.. we went to petsmart..and betty bought a lil aquarium and new fishies.. those black ones with huge bugg eyes.. cute hehe..i took a long nap ..then..woke up and went to anthonys

anthony was having dinner iwth his girlfrend when i called to go over..she left when i got there.. first thing she said when she saw me.. ure hair!!.. dunno if that was a good thing or a bad thing..hehe.. jello met us up..and we watched american teen idol..anthony needed to study at ten..so me n jello went back to irvine..and watched tv and talked n stuff..fun day i guess..hung out iwth the homies.. cept jan..but its ok... well...at around 1.. my pops gave me a ring..

see.. i might sound like me n my pops has this really b ad relationship..but actually. .my pops is a really good dad....he has only hit me once in my whole life..that actually.. counted... actually..the only time i remembered..(maybe the other times were soo traumatic that i blocked it out of memory...jk hehe).. but yeah.. hes a good dad.. strict n stuff.. but overall good...likes to lecture..and set a good example..of course..hes the ultimate example.. grow up to be like him..and he'll be proud.. not satisfied..but proud.. but unfortunately.. he raised a couple of kids..with the same stubborness.. hard headed..big headed... whatever.. but were different..and he has a hard time swallowing that..

tonight.. he called me up.. AYE..where the hell are you..why the hell arent u home?! uh.. im at a frends..what the hell are you donig there..(i was gonna say making babies..but... i didn't think he was in a joking mood ).. so instead.. uh.. were watching tv...what?!.. what?!.. you cant do that at home?!.. ( at this point.. i kinda felt that he wasn't all too happy...perceptive arent i??)... uh.. you want me to come home.....duh.. well.. he didnt say duh.. but he said the equivelant to it in chinese.. so i said my goodbyes and got my ass home.. all the while expecting him to have a belt in hand.. ready to pounce on me when i got home.. but of course.. hes not up.. hes knocked out in his bed.. i think he just wanted to feel like a dad for a few minutes b4 he starts a new day... i dunno.. im 20.. yea yeah yeah.. i can hear it now.. 20 yrs old.. shit.. you think your smarter than your old man now?..what.. you know everything now at 20 huh.. ill tell u son.. youve got a long way to go.. ive been through everything youre ever gonna go through..trust me..learn from me.. your frens arent going to be there when your down in the dumps.. your frens are gonna leave when youre not making money..and laughing..and watching mooovies.. frens..HAH.. all you need is your family.. great dad..thanks..

i think my dad lectures me so much.. because he doesnt want me to grow up and say..well.. i never knew any better..and also.. to be kinda like those dont smoke commercials.. hes that lil voice that tells me to stop being stupid.. i basically lecture myself in my head....subconsciencly(SP) of course..but me n my dad are different.. im a texan.. a cali boy..a usa kid... i grew up in the projects..roaches n rats... jk.. naw.. but.. i like art.. im goofy.. i hate studying.. i like to dance..stupid in public?!..thas me!!.. i like rollercoasters.. i hate rules.. i have no discipline.. i am called a dork 50 times a day.. my dad is nothing like myself.. so how can he understand what im going through..how im feeling.. how im this n that.. well..he doenst have to.. he doesnt want to.. all he wants is his son at home.. under control..not doing drugs..not doing girls.. not in jail... we have some sort of compromise i guess.. i am a good son..i do my own thing.. he sacrifices his time n energy at work.. i sacrifice the drugs and the booty...he gives me money to spend..i go to school and get good grades... but sometimes.. i feel trapped.. and i need to git out.. and well..thas when we butt heads... my pops and i... sigh*

i need to move out.........

2002-06-25T12:54:00.000-07:00

AYE BRO/ENGLISH TEACHER!! i made the changes !!.... har har har...(i KNEW immersed looked wierd with an e!)... bleh...

i did absolutely nothing yesterday...well..except buy dog food, even if you plan to do nothing all day, you still have to buy dog food, its wrong not to...can't wake up the next day and have no food for your doggie!!!... but yeah..otherwise..I did absolutely....NOTHING.
(o no steven, you shouldn't waste your days like that, you only have so many, you should fill it up, and cherish each and everyday.) ....... uh.. no..... FUCK OFF!!.. thas what crazy people say, thas what people who grow up and get ulcers say!!.. I NEED A BREAK SOMETIMES!! yeah... i take a lot of them, YEAH i take long ones, but hey, no stress, no drama... thas healthy!!! ....

y eah yeah.. i know... i should do stuff too, but damn, all my friends got summer school, and its no fun to do stuff, without your frens.......... but ill manage... maybe ill go to the beach..... or go buy something..somewhere..hmm.. maybe a haircut.. yeah my pops has been harrassing me to git a haircut...i can stand the hair.. i just cant stand my pops in it.......i havent cut my hair in at least 2 months.. so im lookin a lil... hehe.. really..shaggy... its ok tho.. i like hair...its funny to me... im usually clean cut.. .. i used to cut my hair every 2 weeks..and my pops would be like..look at me look at me!!.. i only cut my hair every two months... your wasiting your money...sooooooo... i went out and bought a buzzer..and cut my own darn hair..and then..he says its a waste of time!!!........ so.. when i finally take up his advice..and wait two months...actually more.. but still..im taking my time .... and!!!! .he freaks out... grrr.. i live in the twilightzone... the plot.. steven than is a regular chinese kid... with funky chinese hair.... right now you will witness his father... develope a distaste to whatever he plans to do with it.....

hi dad... ..hi WTF is that?!... what do you mean dad?... your head..cut it..cut it now!!.. ok.. NO dont do it yourself... ok.. ill go to a barber... NO!!! dont waste your money on your hair.. you see me.. i do it every two months.. ok.. ill wait two months... WTF is that on your head... but..dad....dad..doooo do dooo dooooo( twilightzone song in the background..) closeup on stevens confused searching eyes... ok..slowly pan down to his flaring nostrils.... ok..quick snap up to his AFRO... now backup... and fade out...

blah... OH hey.. i kinda did do something yesterday.... i watched the AFI life achievement award in film..they were honoring Tom Hanks.. they played his movies back to back... great stuff.. tom hanks n tom cruise are my favorite actors ....as of now...tom hanks is a lil higher than cruise tho.. hes jus played the funnest characters..and respectable ones... cruise is always action.. kinda boring...hehe..isnt that an irony.... but yeah..i watched hanks for most of the day.....sat on my ass..in front of a screen..................aww shit..im at it again!!... ok.. i need to clean my room..do something with my life..

2002-06-24T03:25:00.000-07:00

hehe.. angela left me a bday comment!..hee hee.. hi twink!!.. miss ya love ya!

Jello asked me to write in paragraphs. So I'm going to try, and see how long I can type this blog....proper.

Today was my birthday, well, actually that was about 3 hrs ago, it's 3 o clock in the morning right now... but anyway, I went to this temple in Hacienda Heights (SP) with my family, minus my pops, he was busy, but he loves me!!! It was very interesting, since my beliefs fall nowhere near buddhism, although I try to live a life of campassion (psssh yeah right, a lot of people are saying/spitting on their screen right now) but anyway, that is where I spent a large chunk of the day. Then, after a couple of hours of spiritual cleansing, we drove to long beach towncenter, and watched a Lilo and Stitch, which is a dope movie! After that we went home, and I took a two hour nap, thennn we had a little dinner. It was a very, family time kinda day. I enjoyed it.

Today was also the day Jello, and her friends went back to the townhouse to get ready for school tomorrow. So of course I had to pay a visit. We went on a boba run, and rented some movies, chick flicks. We ended up watching I Am Sam which was soo good, it is one of the best movies I have ever seen. The little girl in there is adorable, kind of reminds me of matilda girl but cuter. After the movie, jello, crystal and tania ( I think) was crying, hai was cool, she was busy analyzing and critiquing,(shes related to Ebert) haha..jk! (i am so on her hitlist) But yeah it was a total tear jerker. We even watched the extra stuff at the end of the DVD. It is really cool to see through the artists' eyes and to hear the reason as to why they shot the shots they did. Really good movie. I had a good time, super chill night.

So that was my birthday. Did a lot of hanging out. Jello also asked me tonite, why I don't write poetry, or actually, to be more exact, whatever happened to all of that?? It went down the shit-hole was my explanation. Some might think it is because I'm alone, not in love, not in anything, so I am not inspired to write stuff like that. Seriously though, I think the real reason is because I've grown up, which is not to say that you stop being romantic and poetic when you're older, but growing up has allowed me to be more realistic. I stopped thinking with my heart a while back, yeah I still have compassion for other people, I can still be empathetic in situations, and I am still kind, but overall I deal with reality with my head more than my heart. Aside from my friends and old people, I am nice to people because otherwise there will be drama. The absence of drama has basically eliminated the need to vent the frustrations and deep emotionally charged feelings that I used to feel when I was immersed in DRAMA. Ask any of my friends, I chill a lot now, I don't take anything too serious, and I don't get involved in anybody else's drama. I just don't have anything to write about, or anyhting to push me to write (which is like your cue to toss me a hot chick for me to fall madly in love with so i can spit poetry for her to eat up ) =D... bleh... right now, chilling is good... fuck mushy shit...mushy can sit in the shithole, I am the happiest I have ever been, without poetry running through my head... so yeah... screw all of that...=P

also.......
driving home I tend to think a lot, dark freeway, you know how it is. Well, i came to the realization that me in graphic design is like me on the freeway, no matter how many cars i pass, and no matter how empty the freeway may look there will always be cars ahead of me. Yet, I am going where i am supposed to be going, and as long as i know that, i will be ooookkk...

2002-06-23T01:19:00.000-07:00

so i live my life as a U turn..
i always git lost.. whenever i go out... i gotta bust at least one U turn... sometimes its a 3 pointer... sometimes its a 5 pointer... my skills with a map are the same as my skills at gaining weight.. im never even close.... my sense of direction make no sense....its upside down... left is right..right is left..where the fuck is north?.. but then agian.. most of the time.. we dont even no where were going..some pple might be like.. fuck.. i hate this shit.. git irritated..be a bitch abuot it... thas why i dont hang with pple like that.. good company is hard to find.. good company when ure lost..is even harder to find....but yeah.. i shood learn my way around.. but thas jus not me... my personality is.. woo hoo..everywhere... so.. might as well match it with my driving..haha...i dont even have a story to go with this blog..it happens soo much.. i dont even remember the occcasions that it happens on... its jus.. everytime i go out.. specially to new places..screw gittin thier the first time..if that miracle does happen..ill git lost going back home..hehe..

2002-06-23T00:30:00.000-07:00

IM 20!!! woo hoo!!...happy bday ME!

my bro turned 22 yesterday... !!!.. happy bday bro..sorry im late!!..forgot to mention it friday night...sat. morning..blah!!..haha.. we aint mushy types... so he dont care..prolly drunk up his ass tonite anyhoo....

2002-06-22T01:51:00.000-07:00

today was the last day of school.. i have a lil break before summer session.. last nite i finsihed 2 of my final projects.. i was up till 530.. putting stuff together..and fixing up my website.. i messed up on one of my projects.. so i was driving to kinkos from 3-4.. cuz their printer was busted..so i had to go home and bring my fucked up project and had to recopy it on their copy machines instead..it came out crappier but eh..whatever..i had a good presentation..and so im sure i passed that class..i had the best website for my other class..so i know i passed that too!!.. im soo happy!.. learning shit that you like is fun.. meetind deadlines suck!.. but yeah lst nite driving .. was crazy..i almost hit a guy when i ran a red light.. 4 in the morning.. people are on the road?1..wtf?!!.. hehe.. i was totally out of it.. i prolly wooda hit him and jus drove off.. i was not all there.. crazy..then there were kittens playing on the road.. which was crazy.. i came to a halt... almost hydroplaned... (it was drizzlin)..stupid cats.. then that fuckin kinkos fiasco... GAWD!...but yeah.. thas all over.. no more shit.. woo hoo.. i came home and slept for like 4 hrs..theeeeennnnnn.. my crew..jello vo and jan took me out for my birthday..2 days early. (turning 20 this sunday!!).. to the laugh factory in LA.. that was the funniest shit ever!!.. i havent laffed soo hard in a long time... i saw bob sagot..which was cool.. hes totally different from danny tanner..or the dork from americas funniest videos..hes fuckin vulgar..and kinda bitter..i think he fucked kimmy gibbler..yeah he was there..and bobby lee from mad tv was there!..dude was the funniest guy tonite.. my chest was hurting.. i was rollin.. tonite was great.. yeah we waited in line for a long time..and yeah the food sucked..but it was great.. to be with good frens.. and to just ...laff.. my crew never lets me down.. like the other nite.. we all went to anthonys house.. to watch americas teen idols..that guys gay.. how the fuck did he win?.. anyway.. yeah we went to in n out afterwards.. jan snacked on a hamburger i think.. and we jus joked around..then went to the park to play on the swings and laff n stuff..the park was closed..but who cares.. we're 19!!... so yeah we were laffing all nite.. seriously.. my frens bring me the best days.. best time of my life right here.. right now..

2002-06-17T17:26:00.000-07:00

nothing is rong with my comment thingy jello... maam.... jus click on comment.. type in ure name email and homepage... and a comment.. then.. scrroll down and click submit comment ............. hehe..

hey peeeepol... i got my website up .. i changed the rollovers..soon ill even have content!!... woo hooo.. well.. my site is www.funkeffects.com ... .. can yall give me some comments.. tell me what i shood change.. other than my head... and the color quality (all will b changed soon...).. color choice bad?.. hows funkman for ya?.. ok.. well.. holla ...

2002-06-16T22:18:00.000-07:00

ok...WANGO TANGO... was the shit.. the bomb..the craziest thing ever..well.. the second half at least hehe...i went with the izl squad..the whole crew.. jello vo daoballs and also jellos roomie hai...the beginning was cool..we went to this carnival wango tango was having.. and waited in this rediculously long line for shampoo.. its cool tho.. had something to do at least.. then we went to the show at the rosebowl... it sucked ass at first... sorry craig david..homee..g ... kha.... ure tite..but yesterday.. u werent that great...bad timing... as Vo said... ten million times.. he woulda been better at nite.. he was like the second act..whatever... it was really good.. im back in love with michelle branch..shes hot.. hehe.. well..cute.. hotness would be... paulina rubio.. speaks horrible english..but speaks fluent body language.. damn!.. she came out in all white..underwear..from what i could make out..and then she went in back..and came out in only underwear.. i love her too... celine dion came out and sang.. it was really nice..she sings beautifully.. go ahead..make fun of me.. i would too.. but yeah.. u had to be there.. it was like perfect.. nite set in.. everybody had their glow stix.. all out of sync.. and it was jus a chill mellow mood.. really nice.. and then..Will smith.. the fresh prince himself.. came out and sang his hits..then ended with summa time.. summa summa summa tiime... yeah he was dope..then THEN THEEEENNNNN!!!!!.. it was NO DOUBT!!.. o fuck... gwen stefani is the bomb.they rocked the house big time..sang everything that ever played on the radio!!.. jello n hai were crying!!!...im cheating on michelle with gwen.. 2 times a nite.. i love her too.. ima go look for her poster.. shes dope.. and then afterwards.. we went to LA..cuz we had to drop off jan anyway..and we ate at noodle world.. or planet..or solar system..i forget.. thas when jello realized she got sun burned.. baaad..she basically only put sunscreen on her arms.. hehe.. cuz im guessing..she thot her philipino island genes would kick in and protect the rest of her body from the harmful rays of the sun.... but yeah.. less jus she better like the design on her shirt..cuz shes gonna have it on for a long time..hee hee... (i love u jello!!!)..hahahaha....hai got burned too.. she was trying to tan her legs.. but..well.. they changed color.. =D.. jus not the color she was looking for..hee hee.. jan jus barely burned her face .. like a lil.. me and anthony are burn free..although my neck is a lot darker.. yeck... ... but yeah we ate a bunch o stuff.. it was all in all.. a great day... what a way to start a summer..that hasnt even come for me yet..hehe...

2002-06-15T00:14:00.000-07:00

so today was the laker parade... crazy... about 1 million people all at the staples center.. my school is about 2 blocks from all the action... well prolly a lil more.. but in anycase.. the people were swarming all around downtown.. parking lots went from the usual 4 bux to 15..everywhere.. gas stations put.. out of order signs on their bathrooms...(i bet tomorrow theyre gonna magically work again..)... people were hiking blocks and blocks ... everybody was honking their horns... this year people had these trumpet things..that were sooo loud..and annoying..but i guess it was fun .........my friend couldnt come to school..cuz the traffic..the cops detoured him back to the freeway..luckily i take the train..or was it really that lucky?... cuz people thought hey.. maybe public transportation was better...in the morning it was ok..but going home..it was soo crowded..this pregnant lady came on..with lakers painted on her belly.. it didnt click at first..so it was about 2 stops later that i realized that ...maybe she needed my seat more than i did.. so i gave it up... the people on the train were soo funny today... these black people were at the door..all bunched up.. they were like.. ok.. next stop..all yall better git off!!.. ok.. slauson!!..all the crack heads... drunk ass niggas..and hos..git the fuck off!!.. everybody was laffing... OK.. all weedheads.. xtc users.. blunt smoking.. foos....(STAY ON..somebody screams..)..HAHA.. they checked the windows..and were like..less blaze this mother fucker up!!..haha.. a seat cleared up..and i was listening to my iPod..and this guy sitting next to me.. taps me on the shoulder..turns out he was deaf.. he erally liked my iPod..and i was telling him..or..signing to him how much music it holds n stuff..then i realized..stupid... hes deaf..he doesnt care..and he busts out his motorolla talk/about.. and he starts up a conversation.. and then..he says somehting that atkes me back a lil.... (he doesnt no his grammar at all.. i think signing has different rules...).. but he types out... i look cute you.... and im liek..wtf?.. i type back..i dont understand.. and hes like.. you..cute... and i kinda go..o shit..its a gay deaf guy..but i didnt wanna b mean..he might just be a foriegn guy.. didnt no how to say.. u look cool..or something..cuz he went on with his typing..i go college..learn..you... yes?.. and we just went on talking about college..an graphic design ns tuff.. seemed like a nice enuff guy......and then my stop was coming up.. and at the end of it... he types out... are you gay sex/bi?.... first thoughts to my head..damn..shooda ran.. but then i thot..eh.. dudes got enuff problems..hes deaf.. mute..and gay.. so i jus shook my head with a laff..and he gives me the..o nevermind then look..and he types.. well you have a nice day...... great... so i got hit on by a gay deaf guy....damn.. why couldnt he have been one of those hot laker fans?.. there were soo many today.. everybody was ready for the heat..so they came on with tanktops..no bras.. and low jeans (thank you britney)..i dont understand gay people..ill respect them.. as long as they dont do anything to me.. the deaf guy was cool..wasnt being...gay..i had no idea he was gay ..just thought he was a lil...off?.. bleh.. but gay people.. gay guys to be more exact.. how..and why?.. some say its genetic..some say its by choice..but shit.. the womens.. in LA especially.. are sooo hot.... sooo hot!!. i go to school with perfect 10 girls.. how can there be gay people?!.. AGGHH...it makes no sense to me.. the male form.. is ugly.. DONGS are ugly!... but boobies..and booties.. on womens... are.. beautiful.......... i just dont understand.......... but then again.. its better for me i spose..chances of me gitting a girl are better now.. not likely..but better.... haha..

so .... ill just add that experience to the.. i hope that shit never happens again.. list....

2002-06-11T21:03:00.000-07:00

woo hoo i got me a comment thingy.. yeah !..and i got one comment!!..woo hooo!!.... ok.. enuff of that..

thanks to jello for showing me yaccs... i even copied her html.. and format..hehe.. shes a genius!...

ok.. back to hw..this is..STEVEN THAN.. aka wookie...aka rumpshayka... aka fingerfoods...aka midnight snax..SIGNIN OUT!!.. heheheheh

2002-06-11T02:21:00.000-07:00

somebody told me that eating 3 hrs b4 bedtime isnt healthy... nigga..i aint on body solutions.........

(im sure there is some truth in it)....

2002-06-11T02:20:00.000-07:00

so my 20 minute break turned into 2 hrs..and now im screwed..well.. not really.. but... the project that i was spose to finish tonight... well.. it has been postponed... for the sake of my sanity.... its really due next week..but my teacher..who can b a blundering idiot... gave us the project late...soo hes rushing us.. bleh.. screw him... not my fault.....im not going to point fingers.... but..it is his fault......hehe... whatever... i just hope i get an A......................anyway...

next quarter... i have 3 8:30 classes... 3 days straight... 3 out of 4 classes... the 4th being a 3 o clock class.. 333333...so like one day out of 3... i am going to go to school from 830-11... lunch till 12.. and wait 3 hrs..for my 3 o clock class to start.. i think 3 is my lucky number.. i am one out of 3 kids in my family... 33333... hmm.. i have 3 lips.. 3 nipples..3 eyes..and according to betty vo.... 3 nu--..... uh..soooo..................

today.. i was on the train..YES another train story.. and i was sitting in a near empty train car..and 3 black girls were sitting in there.. being loud with 2 black guys.. all in middleschool...or like highschool.. scrubs....then the two black guys git off..and 3 more black girls come on.. 2 huge round lumbering girls.. and one skinny chick... all about the same age as the other girls.. LOUDER even... and this fat chick.. hella fat.. like..grotesque fat.. not the cute pudge u find on babies..but the kinda fat.. that you just think to yourself..how could you let yourself get that fat..kinda fat.. well anyway..i was reading my book.. (i forgot my iPod....so i had to listen to their obnoxious conversations).. and the fat girl.. kept giving out that ludicrous call... OU OWWWOOOOUUUUUU... (i got a big weed stash..pocket full o cash..)...u no the call...yea..she kept doing that.. liek out of nowhere..and i guess she felt she was cool.. cuz the first set of girls were laffing..and so she comes up next to me..and sits down.. puts her arm up over my back... and im like..great.. stupid fat bitch is gonna use me to get a laff.....she says..hello.. how are u.. i look at her..like..fuck off ... and shes like..whta ya reading there?.. -a book....whats the book called..-hard boiled wonderland... is it good..-just great... whats it about.. -the end of the world...i was gonna say.. its about a chinese kid that gets pestered by a big fat dark ugly bitch .. and so he pretends he is reading a book.. but actually he is planning to blow up the train and everybody in it..with a bomb he hid in his backpack.... but.. that would only make her wanna mess with me even more..so.. i just tried to stay calm and ignore her... she finally gits up and leaves.. only to give out a big ass...OU OWWOOOOOOUUUU... like the orangatun she is.....stupid people these days.........

2002-06-09T19:50:00.000-07:00

we live in our little worlds.. concerned with finals.. and eminem.. and our little life styles we try to maintain.. and in the background..crazy things are happening that could change our lives dramatically....and we don't even know... people are planning to blow up subways... the fbi is capturing drug lords.... people are having sex..some are masturbating.....(eeeww.....and how does this effect me? you may ask..)...well ok..THAT doesnt.... but still.. YOU didnt know DID you?!......ok yeah.. well while making a search on the internet... i came across this by accident... pepsi is coming out with pepsi blue apparently to rival against coke and their new vanilla coke....later in august..... geez.. thats just..crazy.... and some loser came up with .this... and a loser like me came up with.. well..this blog..sorry guys..i was bored.. for all you 3 people who read this.. i apologize..haha

2002-06-05T17:34:00.000-07:00

OH MAN.. they hooked me up!!!

distinctive assets... that company i was working for, totally hooked me up!!!

they gave me a big ass trashcan of stuff.. jus..stuff!!.. sonex toothbrushes.. certificates for clothes.. cologne..and perfume for the ladies in my life.. um.. they gave me a gamecube..and a gameboy advanced!.. the got me some cranium board games..they got me some chocolate.. gin.. yes..they hooked a brotha up with alcohol..some wine..and some VOSS water.. which is pure water from norway.. nice huh.. i got a buncha stuff man..im soo happy!!1.. MUCH PROPS TO DISTINCTIVE ASSETS... they also want me to do sommore stuff... but i dunno whats that all about yet.. hehe.. anyway..ima go enjoy my stuff...

2002-06-04T20:06:00.000-07:00

HEY PEOPLE!

today i went to a printshop... lithographics in LA, that shit is soo cool, sooo big, me n my class got a tour around the place, it was awesome.

one print machine could take up a whole house man, it was like humongous, and for every machine, there is a little office beside it that has these people checking samples of the print to make sure its perfect. inside the office theres like big panels and buttons that stop the press and stuff, its crazy, it looks like homer simpsons nuclear plant. soo out of the ordinary.

so yeah, i made my\ business card last nite, and finished putting up a "under construction" page for my website funkeffects.com. so yeah, its coming along, soon im going to have work, and contact information. which also reminds me, ANYBODY that needs work done, can give me a holla at www.phaze1fx@hotmail.com anything that has to do with graphics, let it be birthday cards, party fliers, invitations, websites, t shirts, email me at phaze1fx@hotmail.com with a big ol WORK as the title. ill definately give it a look, see if i can do it.

ive been kiggin it with my izl squad lately, went to melrose with vo the other day, and last night went to irvine, jus to get boba, with jello,... jello being a person, not the food. i didnt order boba with jello.... well i did.. but.. ok anyway....i hung out there for a while, just to hang out, cuz i dunno, i like kiggin it with jello, its alwyas funny, stupid ...but funny..haha.. and like, i was bored with my assignments, needed to do something... so.. i went to get boba... next i need to hang out with jan..shes been missin in action for a while now, i wonder if she still looks the same...

well distinctive assets asked me to go get my "prize" tomorrow in the afternoon, has to be after 12, because before that would be bad, i think my prizes blow up if they leave the place before 12. that wouldnt be good. so yeah, im excited, my iPod is the shit .. ida been cool with just an iPod, but hey, if they wanna hook me up... they can go right on ahead...

im happy...=D

2002-06-02T00:05:00.000-07:00

slowly..but surely.. i design the world...

2002-06-02T00:03:00.000-07:00

hehe.. sooooo .. sorry i havent written in like.. uh.. few days?...

ive been doing school stuff.... soooooooooo lesse...

i finished that brochure thing.. printed 100 copies.. and delivered it to them in person... then.. when i got there..they were in a rut with the MTV music award brochures..the guy that made that one for them... messed up..and they coodnt get a hold of him..soooooo STEVEN than ..graphic designer... to the rescue...i fixed their files up.. in like..2 and a half hrs.. and t hey were soo happy.. then they realized it wouldnt print..so i fixed that too.. 2 points for steven.. im bigger than shaq at this point.. and they were soo pleased..that they hooked me up with an iPod!.. which is like a 400 dollar mp3 player for macs.. its soo cool.. theyre gonna hook me up with my other stuff this coming week..i cant wait.. watch the TONY AWARDS tomorrow night...100 of those famous people are gonna get my brochure!!.. yeah!!!!!!.. hehe.. oh..if you watched the mtv music awards..those people saw all of my corrections!!!.. woo hoo!!!

i went to melrose today.. bought 6 shirts.. diesal shoes.. 3 pins... (one with the mens bathroom symbol/ one with the ratpack...they were soo cool.... and.. one with a drawing of a hoola girl... all of which are pinned to my backpack... woo hoo).. and i got a pinks hotdog that was goood shit.. yeah.. today was fun.. gotta go again.. might go again tomorrow.. my bro needs to return something..hehe

watched undercover brotha... that shit is funny.. check that movie out.. SOLID......
blackness confirmed... you got soooul.... hAHAHA

i finally figured out how to make my site.. still got some learning to do.. btu.. im getting there...

its . funkeffects.com.. i some ideas for it.. but yeah.. right now.. its under construction..hehe... its gonna b cool..if it turns out how i picture it....=)

2002-05-27T01:25:00.000-07:00

this songs dedicated to my homees... in the izzzzlll squad... whyd u have to goooo soooo soon.. it seems like yesterday we were hanging... in the hoooooooood.... wait... we were jus hanging..hahah

this situation happens soo much.. i wrote a song...(dont ask me to sing it)

can somebody tell me! - steven than

CAN SOMEBODY TELL ME!! what the fuck they wanna do!?...
i dont care dude.. whatever man... ure the driver its..uuuup to YOU...
i start the engine..put my foot down on the gas
turn on the radio... were heading NOWHERE fast...
PLEASE SOMEBODY TELL ME!! what the fuck were gonna do??
anythings fine.. i really dont mind... sorry...... i have nooooo clue....
so i guess were chillin.. gonna cruise on down the street
make a few turns.. take a freeway.. we have no schedule to meet
WHAT THE FUCK MAN?! what the hell are we gonna do??
i really dont no.. where u wanna go? seriously.... ANYTHING!! would be cooool.......
so i guess were going home.... gonna call it a nite
ended up doing nothing...but at least it was a fun ride...
cant wait to see u next time... .. what u doin tomorrow nite?
CAN SOMEBODY TELL ME?! PLEASE SOMEBODY TELL ME!!!!!!
what the fuck were gonna dooooo dooo doooooooooooooo!

2002-05-23T09:12:00.001-07:00

hehe.. bragging is fun.. mean sometimes..but fun!!... hehe... im sure im blowing it out of porportion.. but.. i must say.. it feels good to know that somebody likes your work...=)..i actually went to their office, which is up in the hollywood hills.. and fuck.. i got lost.. everybody that nos me real well wont even blink when i say that.. its something that i have to go through when im going somehwere new.. its soo stupid tho.... they work at this 3 story house... that is at the end of a cul da sac.... which is liek a dead in loop curve thing kinda nayborhood.... so im driving.. and i come up to a house.. and it wasnt the right place.. it was like 4357 or something... and i was looking for 4346.. so im like.. oh... must be a bit down sommore.. so i kept driving.... and the directions say culdasac..... so i thot hey... cul da sacs end.. like a DEAD end.. but i saw an opening still.. and so i kept driving..turns out to be an allyway.. with vines and leaves everywhere..it was a nightmare..it was green from one end to the other.. it was soo scaree.. i thot i was going to end up in wonderland.. but turns out i ended up on halfway down from where i started... but anyway... after accidently going to the wrong house... on a different street..but had the same number.. i got directions again.. and found that i had actually passed it by one house.. apparently the person who numbered houses in hollywood was going by a different numerical system than i was.... stupid fucker....but yeah.. people at distinctive assets are bomb ass.. theyre super nice.. and welcoming.. i want to work for them!!.. like.. office job.. ill get them coffee..ill work for the coffee girl..if she was a coffee girl.. blah.. but yeah.. it was awesome.. they showed me the basket that my brochure goes into.. well..the stuff that is going to b in the basket at elast... i saw shoes..gameboy..tic tacs.. buncha expensive stuff.. and more stuff all sitting on top of a pianoo..dunno if theyre gonna include the piano... they cood u no......i dunno what theyre gonna give me.. but i hope i find myself witha new gameboy advanced next week.. in anycase.. id be happy with them as a reference on my resume...or putting this piece in my portfolio.. theyre name n number is definately going into my address book.. awesome people... ok..enuff of that...... so yeah.. hey EVERYBODY.. thanks for signing my guestbook!.. hehe.. its cool to hear from my people.. sign in whenever you guys feel like it.. like anthony did.. trying to make it look like i got more frens... bitch!..haha... yeah.. its more like a forum if anything.. got questions? got answers? got recipes? hit it up.. haha... aight well.. lesse.. i havent done anything for school in the past 3 days... dont know why... teacher assigned us homework... and i always do this... i make myself believe that i will be able to finish it in the nick of time.. on the day that it is due.. i have NO idea why i think like this... i shood stop... im becoming lazy.. and that isnt good.. but the first thing to recovery is admitting you havea problem.. but.. is being lazy a real problem... back in 1806.. there was a scientist by the name of...... AHH fuck.. no excuses!.. im lazy.. lazy lazy... but thats ok..cuz its going to change.. i have plenty of time to turn over a new leaf.. hmm.. oh so the otherday i was talking to my new fidm fren ... less call her....K DAWG..who lives in long beach as well.. in ghettoville... hehe..shes cool tho..awesome chick.. we were talking about a classmate.. yeah sorry.. i was hating.. but shit.. she is soo fucking annoying... shes that girl that i was talking about a couple of blogs ago.. ill put the link later.. but yeah.. i was dogging her kinda.. im mean.. and K DAWG was taken back a bit.. hehe.. didnt no i cood be so mean..im sure a lot of people dont no.. but when u are as annoying as this girl is.. fuck.. u cant hold back.. she even called me the other day... (luckily my fone died, i checked it later that night).. and left a message.. on the day that this research assignment was due..where you had to call a service bureau.. and get info..and she coodnt find one.. so she left a message that siad she coodnt.. and that she wanted me to help her... wtf?!.. how was i gonna help her?!.. and then she gets to class..and says that she left a message for me.. and i was like..my fones dead..what did u want?.. shes like.. o nevermind..its too late... ill deal... LIKE IT WAS MY FAULT shes a fucking retard?!.. damn..she pisses me off.. her incompetance.. and her loud..nasily voice...AHH... it reeks stupidity!... i came up with a conclusion as to why shes soo stupid.. she talks loud with an annoying voice..plain and simple.. naw..hear me out.. since shes soo loud.and annoying..she gives off her stupid opinion to look for debate every now and then.. just to test her intelligence.. and people hear her voice..and figure that it would just be easier to agree.and shut her up..than to argue and continue listening to that hideous voice.. so all her life she has been led to believe that she is right..and she continues to form these illusions that she is on top of things... simple case of MORON!... but yeah..kristy was like..fuck..ure mean.. but funny.. .. but honestly tho.. im only mean to people that annoy me.. if im mean to frens n stuff.. its all in good fun.... so fuck you all..=D.. fuckers... hehe

2002-05-23T09:12:00.000-07:00

damn... i rote a fuckin essay...

2002-05-18T20:18:00.000-07:00

ok i dont mean to brag.. but.... Distinctive Assets chose to use MY brochure design to use for the tony awards!!!!....ok yeah i do mean to brag!!!! HAHAHAHA.....in case you guys dont no.. these are the pple who create those infamous..humongous baskets that are given away at the tonys and grammys and emmys...and if u still dont no.... well.. now u no ... u no.... and they want MY design to go into the brochure!!.. i cant beleeb.. no i cant baleeb....this is faaaantastic...off the heezy fo sheezy my neezy....HAHAHAAH.. im soo happy..im soo happy... but they need it by next sunday.. hmm.. i think i can make it.. im gonna make it happen....maaake it happen..

2002-05-16T02:51:00.000-07:00

im always complaing.. i even complain about me complaining...stupid.. i know. but honestly... i really enjoy my life.. yeah its boring right now... and sometimes its not fun.. but i think its worth living.. its like a good book.. you read so many pages..and you become a character... the protagonist (cuz in my story.. im the good guy..always)... and you want to finish it.. to see what happens.. crazy shit happens all the time.. but the difference between life and a book..is that..one.. its my life.. i make the choices... if i want something to happen..it can.. if i really tried..i dont have to think of a clever way to introduce a new character into my book..all i have to do is say hi and shake a hand... second thing is that... i cant close this book..or even lose this book..... choices have to be made.. each page has to be filled.. i cant sit and wait for a better time to get back to the book of my life...i have to face and deal with whatever happens........ and another thing.. is that my book has no table of contents.. there arent always reasons.. i dont believe that everything happens for a reason.. i think a lot of things happen... but not neccessarily because i picked my nose at a certain time... no.. shit happens because..shit happens.. so my book is basically..unpredictable.. ok cept for the naps..and the train rides... but its great.. to not know the ending.. its exciting..its a glimmer of hope to me..that this boring ass day to day mundane..life of mine..can one day jus flip upside down..and be crazy.. id welcome that.. who nos... thats a beautiful thing to me.. thats what im living for.. new experiences.. big like becoming a famous movie star... or small like having a baby wave to you on the train.. im tired..prolly not making sense..but something tragic happened today.. and it made me think.. life is a beautiful but at the same time... fragile....

live everyday like it is your last.........HAH.. yah right........yeah.....my last day will be me stressing over an assignment due in an hr.....ggggreeeaatttt but seriously... everybody is loved..... or will be loved... if you dont wanna believe anything else i say.. at least believe that....

2002-05-14T01:29:00.000-07:00

i went to angelas bday party last saturday.. it was funny.. hehe.. we went to danos new pad.. had dinner.. a potluck thang.. ate cake..cookies.. did the bday presents thing..then we went bowling... it was fun..hehe.. happy bday TWINK!!!

2002-05-13T21:43:00.000-07:00

thas angela!!!.. shes 20 today!...hee hee.....happy bday twink!!

2002-05-13T21:40:00.000-07:00

2002-05-13T21:05:00.000-07:00

jan: damn it is hot
me: is that your epiphany for the day?
jan: epiphany is such a cute word, i wanted to name my daughter that
me: yeah and clamidia.. pretty.. and hemroids sounds astrological..
like a greek god... hemroids the great..
jan: herpes sounds like a greek god
me:herpes and hemroids.. and sicocelliousis sounds like something mary poppins made up..
supercalifragilistic sicocelliousis

its the heat i tell ya.. the fuckin heat...

2002-05-08T03:07:00.000-07:00

hmm.. dont u hate it when u meet some pple.. for the first time u no.. and they start off really cool..then a few weeks in getting to know them.. u find out that theyre hella annoying?..................i met this girl.. nothing interesting...jus met her in class.. she seemed cool..i thot she would be a cool girl to get to know.. she looked smart with her palm pilot...and talked kinda loud.. asked questions.. and looked like a good kid.. but.... 2 weeks later...2 damn weeks... she comes to class... not noing what the hell is going on.. asks a buncha stupid questions..talks hella fast.... like the micro machine man..gets on my fuckin nerves yo!!!...AHH.. thas irony for ya.. me with my stupid notes..and fucked up binder..can come to class with everything done.. her..and her stupid technology... comes to class with diddely squat... wanting to drop the class..cuz shes soo behind..because of ....(place excuse here).... excuse after excuse.. gawd... retard man... so.. yeah.. not gonna git to no her anymore...waste of breathing space..............=P.. im mean.. i no it.. fuck off

2002-05-05T17:08:00.000-07:00

coffee

coffee makes me happy...... honestly... it gives me this hyper-crazy-git out of my way bitch kinda feeling...the caffiene circulating my system creates an illusion of extra energy... that my body falls for everytime.. since it feels like i have all this energy..i jump around..and dance excessively.. and i just cant stay still.. then after i pee away the coffee.. i cant focus.. im jittery..and i can barely think straight...

izl squad to me... is like coffee.... they give me this feeling that nothing can go rong.. they give me an illusion that the world is ok.. its dope like that.. theyre my caffiene..i fall for it everytime.. but i dont mind.. i like to forget shit sometimes.. but seriously.. after i take a break from them.. im jittery.. i cant focus... my minds adrift.... i need my daily dose of izl..fo shizl.....

its been pretty hard to gather up the crew.. theyre all busy.. studying.. relationshiping... sleeping... dang.. it sucks.. i might even be forced to make new friends.. i mean i have new frens.. but .. i dont kiggit with them.. i might have to make part-time kiggit frens..sorry guys.. but i need a quick ...... red bull......

izl.. unite....

2002-05-04T13:04:00.000-07:00

ok yesterday was prolly the worst day since..well..a long time.. it wasnt like super duper horrible..it was jus..the worse ive had in a while... first off.. i only got 3 hrs of shut eye... so i was like burned out b4 the day started... then going to class..i realized that i forgot my disk with all my information that goes with my project... and i forgot the next classes hw..which was in another disk..so i asked the teacher to leave early... caught the train all the way back to long beach...went home... got my disks... went back on the train... and i asw these three black kids.. 16 or 17... jus lookin very suspicious..actually..they looked evil.. like the kids i wouldnt mind throwing off the train... and they kept snickering..then one kid skips up the isle (it was pretty empty)... and i hear a pop.. and the train starts stinking up.. i thought it was the black kids.. (i was reading man... wasnt paying attention....im not racist!!).. then it started smelling like raw eggs... (still cooda been the black kids).... but i knew it was a stink bomb.. this lady called the emergency fone thing and told the train guy what happened.. on the next stop..i went on the next train car... but .....they had hit that one too.. so...all 3 cars.. smelled like shit... and for 40 minutes... i heard groans of every knew passenger picked up.. i heard..this shit smells in like 5 different languages ... and i smelled about 6 different brands of calogn and perfume... they were spraying it like aerosal.... but yeah....40 mins of hell..that only the metro could provide..anyways.. i got to school..dropped off my hw..and...went home.. i spent more time on the train than i did in school yesterday.. going home.. there were these two black guys sitting behind me..nice guys... i cood tell.. jus by the jokes they were telling..i had a walkman on... and they were commenting on how burnt i looked.. "prolly high..its only 2"... said one of the guys.....i guess they didnt know i cood still hear.. well anyway.. a bum comes on..the one with the glass eye that he pulls out for shock value so pple give him money..... and he does his thing..comes back to the front..and goes.. i made a grip this time.. i got too much i think.. and one of the black guys go.. o man..u did yo thang..aye let ME borrow 50 cents.. acutally more like.. lemme borrow fiddy cents.. and the bum gave it to him!!!... a few stops down.. the bum had gone..and i was bout to leave..and i took my earphones off..and one of the guys go.. damn nigga..u asked a bum for money.. u hit a bum up for fiddy cents.. thats low..and the guy was all embarressed.. and looked up at me..tryin to get some help.. i was like.. he actually gave it to you??.. hes like.. yeah.. he did.. i mean if the man had some to spare....right my man?? and i looked up. laffing.. im like "yo .. u jus dont take money from bums..thas jus rong......" everybody around was laffing.. my stop pulled up.. and i left...everybody on the train was still smiling.. pretty nice way to end a horrible day i guess..

2002-05-04T12:45:00.000-07:00

so i went to a SAVES THE DAY concert in san deigo on thurs nite...it was awesome.. great music... crazy white pple..hehe... my brother...who actually told me about the concert..almost didnt git in..cuz the wherehouse that he bought the tix from gave him the rong date..but he bought two... and the other one was right..so ..yeah..he got screwed... so he had to go out and look for a guy scalpin tics... after an hr..me and the rest of the pple (6 total..all of which were my bros frens) gave up.. (he woulda been mad if we didnt enjoy ourselves because of him)... so we decided to go see the show and come and look for him later... but at the end..he got in..just in time for the real band...it was fun after that...

everybody was pushing and jumping and crowd surfing....so....punk?..hehe.. it was great... the band kicks ass live...

afterwards..we went to Fumaris in downtown SD ..its a hooka joint..it was really chill.. my bros fren knew the bouncer... we were smokin for about an hour n some...flavored tabacco... rose petals and apple something..it was cool..hehe.. driving back to irvine.. it only took about an hr... which was cool...

2002-04-27T23:38:00.000-07:00

hmm..today was... uneventful...

2002-04-27T12:48:00.000-07:00

blah.. to end the day.. i got in trouble at home.. i felt like arguing with pple.. got me in some hot water.. "im hot.... im hot just like an oven" yeah.. so i coodnt stay home..i needed to be around my friends..so i went out with vo.. to hometown buffet.. good stuff..well.. kinda.. but its hometown buffet what u expect... nigga vo wasnt even hungry..he jus wanted to put something in his mouth..hahaha... no nasty jokes please.....anyway...we went to jellosafterwards... n watched ..life or something like it... with her n her roomates...good movie..feel good movie.. angelina jolie is hot.. i dont care what everybody says.. shes hot... then we went home..it was a good nite..a feel good nite..hehe.. ok.. i gotta go to work now.. blah..

2002-04-27T12:40:00.000-07:00

religion.... hmm... few years ago.. i was a big humongus christian... id defend THE WORD every chance i got..specially with this mormon guy... id try to spread the gospel... be righteous..i was really afraid of God.. i prayed everything......then something happened...and i started to question my faith... and found that i wasnt true anymore... it sucked...it coodnt be helped..cuz i didnt want the help..and blah..well anyway no sob story here...
yesterday.. on the train... a guy came on..and made small talk with this young girl..he was bout 40.. she was bout 19-20... and he was really nice..then he asked..
" do u read ure bible?".. and i kinda knew something was gonna happen..
shes like "yeah i go to church"...
"thas not what i asked, i asked if you read the bible..."...
all the while im reading my book....
"i read it at church..."
"well i read my bible... everyday..."
o man..here it comes... i slowly but surely put on my headphones...and alien antfarm fills my ears...i continue reading my book.. only hearing the words.."evil...devil....he cant take you to heaven...cant even fit in the eye of a needle.. u no how small an eye of a needle is?".. i glance over to the girl..she sitting across from him.. giving him half smiles..and nods..and other than that..its pure agony..you can tell she wants to leave..but she doesnt want him to go psycho on her..poor girl i thought....blah... she cant be saved...haha... how is that for irony...... she cannot be saved by the guy whose trying to save her...=\... sad... i also noticed that this guy didnt no when to shutup... he was preaching yeah.. blah blah.. great... so what..he doesnt have any sense of BOREDOM?.. its like..just because he is preaching.. and saying GODS word.. he can go on n on..sorry.. im being mean.. but if you sit on the train..and see how many PREACHERS come in..and try to share the word.. if not with stupid .. "i was a fucked up drugee..but God saved me.. so im handing out pamphlets now"... then its the old asian lady with the green vest that says "jesus loves you"..on the front...and... "dont go to hell".. on the back... its endless... i love their devotion to God..but.. dang.. why does God send the crazy ones my way?..sorry if i sound disrespectful n all.. but its annoying.... sorry..but it is.. no.. wait.. im not sorry... sad but true.....

2002-04-25T21:04:00.000-07:00

oh yeah..so i was on the train today..reading my book (actually my bro lent it to me)...dance dance dance..by haruki murakami... when this lady shatters my little forcefield of concentration..."he straight changed my channel... who the fuck do he think he is?.. changing my channel.. who the hell gave him the right to even touch the damn remote... nigga crazy.. do he pay for my cable...hell naw.... shit... i pay for my own damn cable thank you very much..shooo....... hmph....so howd u get my number? ant gineeeva givit to yah?.. "-black lady with a baby on the train ...... so yeah... shooo hmph... that my friend..is a transition from one subject to another.. another lesson in ebonics on the train.... =D

2002-04-25T20:59:00.000-07:00

AHHHHH.... i need some motivation.. to do my hw... its been sitting in my bag for a few days now.. a couple of blogs ago..ida jumped at the chance to design...and when i finally got back to school i did.. but it was for a typography class.. so my DESIGNS.. didnt really count.. i got a good critique.. pple loved my designs..but the teacher doesnt really grade on the design... not even the effort..jus so that i understood how to use the font correctly... and then there is my DESIGN studio 2 class..... where i shood be hopping around..whooo hooo yippy skippy.. but.. im not..cuz im doing a dumb design... its a cool project.... i guess..just not what i like to design.. but i guess this cood be a lesson... you cant always get the projects you want..maybe im pissy cuz im stuck in a rut... dont you hate it when u get a project.. or something.. and you know there are like ten million different solutions.. but you get an idea.. a very general.. not too creative idea.. that fits though... and ure stuck..totally stuck.. cant git the fuck out..stuck.. or maybe its just me.... my teacher loves to make us "think out of the box"..and i try.. i do a lot of times.. but sometimes..that box is more like a vault.. with a combination key..a retina scan and a laser defense system... its soo hard.... baaah..

i need to move out.. when i was living by myself.. up in pasadena..it was great..yeah it was quiet..lonely a lot of the time... traffic was a bitch going home..but it was quiet..my safe haven.. MY spot... i cood do my hw.. i got everything done..mostly cuz there wasnt anything else i needed to do.. my needs pyramid was pretty much taken care of...had shelter..food.. clothing/warmth... yep.. i was surviving.. .. my mother wasnt calling me to take her places...or telling me to get things ..that are erally..just an arms reach away.... (due to my nature.. these blogs may be a little over exagerrated).. but u get the idea right???... yeah i need to move out again.. this time for sure.. im not coming back... ok..im spoiled.. i mooch off my parents..but ive never really been given the chance to go out into the work force.. ive always stayed around to help out at the shop..or the store.. but now..... .no more excuses.. ima find me a job.. and pay for my own pad... i dont care... i need to get out.. im not getting anything done..im not learning enough life lessons.. experts suggest at least 3 life lessons a day... or else you ....die or something...blaaah... ok.. gotta do hw gotta do hw.... damn that bed looks nice and ruffled..just like i left it this morning.... and that pillow.. still has that indent of where my head was laying.... fuck... i think ima take a nap....screwed....

2002-04-20T23:12:00.000-07:00

im back from irvine..went clubbin last nite.. it wasnt that great... im not gonna complain too much..i did enuff of that last nite..but yeah.. good thing it was for free..thanx to lynnaay..... yeah we had a good ride tho..it was fun driving there... with jello... and two of her roomies... hai n crystal...we saw a guy cross over out of the carpool lane when he wasnt spose to......behind a cop!....funny shit.. at first we thot the cop didnt notice... but then when the guy moved over one lane..the cop slowed down and followed.. he changed lanes twice.. and so did the cop.. but the lights didnt flash or anything.. and then after a few seconds..the lights finally came.. i guess the cop was running the plates or something.. ..it was funny ... yeah sad..were laffing at someone elses misfortune... thas always bad karma or some shit.. but yeah..it was funny =D.. bad karma did come sorta......we got lost..goin to the club..but i always git lost... git over it..haha.... yeah well.. this n that... the night ended with us at a korean joint in ktown... we had a nice ...breakfast..and got to irvine at about 330ish...it was koo..today aws pretty lazy... got some lunch at mitsua..i think thas how u spell it..a japanese place.... then hung out in irvine this afternoon for a bit..they had a fair..where tone loc was performing.. ooolllldddd schooool... it was pretty funny.. when i got home.. me my bro n my sis went to watch scorpian king.. not the best movie..but pretty cool in its own right...it being the rocks first movie..it was pretty good... hes not the best actor..and they cooda made it ...not soo cheesy.. but it was good..o yeah..kelly hu is fooooiiiinnneee...id do her .....3 times.... but yeah.. tonites... been pretty.... intense..at home... im not gonna go into it.. so git the fowk out of my biznaaaaaz.....aight..im out...

hmm 420... im not high... ah well..... its ok.. next year..haha

2002-04-08T17:08:00.000-07:00

so i was reading South of the Border West of the Sun, by haruki murakami... goood book.. triple O's in that good.. yeah.. i coodnt put it down.. i never thot id say that..but i literally coodnt put it down..i read it in one night and a morning.. if i didnt start so late last nite..ida finished..but yeah.. i was up till 330 reading it.. i havent done that in a loong time.. great story..i cood relate in so many ways..ima read another one of murakami's book today.. A Wild Sheep Chase... hehe..sounds interesting huh..anyway.. if ure wondering where i got these books from.. its my bro.. he reads a lot..and suggested i look at these books..which are some of his favorites..he has this sense..that tells him that i might like something..usually he has good judgement..and sometimes he doesnt... blah..but yeah..this book..was a good call..and a good read... hehe...i feel like readigng rainbow... if ure into love..complications..lame legs..and betrayels.. pick up south of the border west of the sun... its a great book..but dont take my word for it...haha..reading raaaaiiinnnboooww

2002-04-08T17:02:00.000-07:00

i had a great weekend... i went to jellos house..to celebrate lynns bday on saturday... its a big blur .. but.. i sense that it was a good time.. i prolly made a fool of myself.. and prolly said some things that pple just nodded and smiled at..to be nice...and i prolly would feel like a total jackass..if i cood remember it..but i dont..and that is good.. hahahaha...ive never forgotten a night b4..well not like that.. it was... a dream.... i was in a movie.. the best movie ive ever been in.. i kept having to remind myself..oh yeah.. i can interact with these pple.. and that i shood be in it..not jus watching..it was a wierd feeling...a great feeling.. hehehe.... i saw and hung out with my old homegirl from UCR... monica...shes soo cool.. i kept callin her a monkey.. dont ask why.... haha.. sorry monica!.. she was fun .. i think..i dont remember any conversation we had..but i do remember laffing with her.. hmm.a.nd angela and kim dropped by.. small world.. everybody nos everybody i swear.. if i didnt go to riverside..or if i didnt meet jello ... ida met these pple one way or another.. im sure of it.. but yaeh..angela was kind enuff to treat me nicely..hee hee.. she was trying to understand what i was saying..i remember her being nice..thas bout it.. dang.....hehe..good nite.. . happy bday lynnay...

DOH.. i forgot my fone in irvine.. dag nabbit

doo doo

2002-03-30T02:17:00.000-08:00

WALAH!.. i am home.. i am home.. i am home...vo finally kicked me out..haha.... my spring break is coming to an end..pretty darn quick.. i jus got home a few mins ago.. its good to be home.. i was at vo's for a week.. hehe.. my spring break was at a homees pad...VO is the coolest homee.. he gave me a HOME for a week..hehe... i hung out with the izl squad most of the week..it waas fun.. i went clubbing last nite.. saw a buncha titties..i mean..girls..and danced all nite.. but.. blah..didnt go pimpin or nothing..darn..maybe a couple more times.. or when im drunk..whatever.. anyway.. all i did this week was chill..watch movies..play video games..and slept.. hahaha.. o well..ive been on break for 3 months.. im used to it..hehe... all the things that we planned went awry..so..from now on..fuck plans.. spontaneity is our new rule..=P...

next week........school.. im EXCITED..(freals!).. ok time to KNOCK THE FUG OUT!

2002-03-23T02:30:00.000-08:00

ok.. so i took out the forum thingy...and put a guestbook thingy.... sorry janet!.. it was a nice post..but i like this guestbook thingy better..holla!..

2002-03-23T01:43:00.000-08:00

HEY!!! i put a forum thingy on the bottom of my site.. so if anybody wants to holla.. .. uh..holla.. jus click it.. read past articles or whatever... or post up a new one.. u can reply n stuff..pretty cool..excuse the banner at the top..n the ugly buttons..hehe.. its kinda temp.. jus ran across it..thot it would be a fun feature!!..HOLLA ..peace..

2002-03-21T20:42:00.000-08:00

ahhhh.... ok..so the roadtrip has been canceled....something happened..that id rather not mention..it was out of our hands...we as in... the izl squad..didn't do anything....it caught us by surprise..and yeah..the trips cancelled.. its ok tho.. hell yes i am dissapointed..as is everybody else.. but stuff happens.. nothingw e cood have dun..anyway.. we need to come up with a plan b...i NEED to do something this spring break.. something..somebody..whateVER!... i want to go have some fun.. its been a while since we ALL hung out.. me being the slut of this squad..(meaning being the only one going around visiting everyone) get to only hang out with 1 person at a time..this break was the time we ALL hung out.. thas the whole point of the trip..recently.. ive been feeling soo happy.. yeah..shit has gone down.. my webdesign venture went splat..it went sour..once the whole payment issue came up..so we ..me and my brother..decided to drop the whole thing.. we cood do that..cuz we were pretty much doing everything.. yeah that happened..and also this trip thing.. yeah.. two collossal shits.. but.. ive been feeling happy.. jus cuz i no i have such great frenz.. somebody asked me.. how i do it.. how im soo happy all the time..(not the gay happy either bitch..the macho happy mother fucker!).. and i answered..good frenz.. yeah..thas how i do it.. so yeah.. trip or no trip.. long as i got me frenz..dont matter where we at...

2002-03-18T02:29:00.000-08:00

so yeah..spring break.. gonna take a road trip up north..otta b cool..jus gonna b me..and my 3 best closest..craziest..dopest frens.. the izl squad.. jan jello and vo.. im not gonna even say words like..hope..or wish.. or whatever..ima say.. it IS gonna b dope..we're such a good mix.. of attitude and jus.. energy..we crazy..... laff laff laff..thas what we do when we hang out.. 75% of the time is at each other..but..yeah its all good.. hehe.. i love my pple.. actually.. i have a lot of good friends...i am blessed..jus really differnt types of pple that i can really call frens..

weds...start planning the trip.....off the heeezy man!!

2002-03-17T23:32:00.000-08:00

this is my brother... caring about me...

bro : http://content.health.msn.com/content/article/1836.50533
bro : for you and fatty
me : tests were on pple ages 30- 102?!
bro : and?
me : i read somewhere.. kids need more sleep than adults
bro : you'll be 30 soon enough
bro : you're not a kid
me : haha
bro : you're just a lazy man-child
me : am too
me : haha
bro: k...bak to studying
bro: just thought you should know you're gonna die early
me: alright.. im goin to sleep
me: hahahaha
me: jk
me: thanx ass hole

2002-03-17T01:59:00.000-08:00

i went to riverside the other nite.. to go party.. it was real cool to see my old college chums again hehe.. i dindt git to visit my ol dorm roommate cuz it was pretty late..didnt wanna wake him up.. but yeah.. i saw a lotta ol familiar faces..some planned some surprised... but all good.. hehe.. i saw all the girls i had crushed on when i was in ucr..hehe..still dint do a damn thing..=P... cuz uh..theyre too far.. yeah..thas it.. haha.... i had a good time thas all that matters..

anyway.. i had the chance to visit jello today..but resisted..since finals are coming up... im too distracting...and that would be inconsiderate...haha.. times like these..when i see everybody stressed out..and hating school.. i am soo grateful that i took this motherfuckin quarter off..hehe.. traded stress over gpa for lazy ass b.u.m. hehehe.. but honestly.. i cant wait to go back.. being a bum does have its perks.. sleep when u want to..wake up when u want to.. but.. i actually miss responsability..being in school was the only time i enjoyed..HAVING to do something..blah.. ive been reading..and stuff..trying to get back in the whole.. learning mode.. learning is always good.. it is soo underrated... should take every experience as a learning experience..hehe.. im going against everything i have ever been taught ... school is cool.. learning is great.. dandy even.. terriffic..=DDD...

ooh..so i went to watch resident evil with my little sister... it was fuckin scaree.. well.. not like..pee in your pants scaree..but..as vo balls would say.. creepy..haha.. yes..super creepy..just... cringing.. and.. >< is it over yet..scaree... hehe.... i liked it a lot.. and for those of you who saw it..and think it was retarded..FUCK OFF.. whose blog is this anyway?!.. blah.. u pissed me off..im done!.. im out!.. fine!..FINE!.. BYE!

2002-03-10T23:09:00.000-08:00

so i fixed my computer.. well actually.. i fixed it a couple days ago... but ive been in irvine a lot lately.. partly doing work..partly kicking it with jello.. ive been making this website for this company.. and today was actually the presentation..and it went great.. i think..they really liked it.. they as in the bosses of that company.. so yeah..im really stoked about that.. it reminded me of why i love to design.. the ability to imagine something then creating it, and it is fully functional is great..then it is really good to know that somebody else likes your work... and is willing to pay for it.. that is just.. ..hehe.. amazing.. i love my job..=D...argh..so tonite is that 911 film on channel 2...jus finished it...... i must admit.. i have never felt so bad for strangers ever in my life. it blew me away the first time..just hearing about it on the radio..i remember where i was.. i was on my way to school.. and kiis was on..and they just found out.. it had just happened..and it didnt really hit me..i got on the train..and betty called..and told me everything she was seeing on the tv....and i was just....... dumbfounded....the hysteria didnt quite hit downtown la.. but as i was walking to school.. i realized how big this was..and the security at the school told me to go home...and then.. everybody on the street was buzzing about what happened..then the trains going back to long beach were packed..it was just..crazy..everybody was waiting for planes to crash into downtown la...god..that was a horrible day......and now.. like.. being reminded.. 6 months after the fact.. its heart wrenching... just imagining the pure terror that people felt, or the fact that people weren't even able to blink before their life was taken away.. its depressing...i want to cry...i want to shake a fireman's hand.. put a flower on somebodys grave.. its just.....sad....

2002-02-28T23:21:00.000-08:00

its heartbreaking, my baby, weve gone through so much, accomplished what many thought impossible, and now, now, i must...... delete ure fucking ass and reinstall every damn program i ever shoved up ure butt. yeah..so my computer is fucking up, and the only way i can undo the damage is back up my shit.. and delete its hardrive, and all you mac haters.. i hope your happy, it has finally happened.. my mac is fucking up!!!...

yeah, well, itll be better after everything is gone, its full of shit anyway, cuz when i was younger, i didn't know the true meaning of owning a computer, now, with maturity comes intelligent ways of organizing and being able to deal with trouble the right way. haha...

anyway...so today, what did i do, oh..absolutely nothing!!.. o wait i take that back, i bought shoes, not your 100 dollar crap that makes you jump higher, or walk on acid and not melt, not your leather shit that you can climb mountains with, no, i bought..... 10 dollar velcros baby.. two pairs.. in your face..light and comfy, and stylish enuff for us people who dont really give a fuck. it saves you time because u dont have to tie your laces, except your ceceptible to those "your laces are untied " jokes... which in this case makes you look 10 times dumber. but yeah, theyre pretty clean, and i mean, i wear two dollar flip flops and my posture isnt that effected, so im sure these shoes won't do that much harm..... velcros, theyre the wave of the future i tell ya.

o and i tried to clean up my room, i was finally embarressed, jello and tanya, two lovely ladies, came waltzing into my room only to find my porn and illegal drugs scattered amongst my 3 week old laundry. jk, it wasnt 3 weeks..hahaha... naw.. actually.. i had clothes and stuff all over my room, it was a total mess, hurricane crazy bitch threw my shit around, aka, lazy mo fucker.... sorry ladies... i meant to clean, i just didnt think we'd make it to my room..hahahaha.. but yeah.. i gotta git this place cleaned up... its degusting.... =P

" when life throws u lemons, you make lemonade" -my sister, who probably stole it from a canadian... dont ask why they had to be canadian!!

2002-02-26T01:19:00.000-08:00

went to la tonite..hung out with daoballs jello and company..... watched ACA culture nite..very good performance.. ate ice cream.. held my pee for too long.. stomach hurts post pee now... ack.... other than that..it was a good nite..

blah...

2002-02-23T16:04:00.000-08:00

aghh... its been a while...

so i chopped off my hair today..coodnt stand it..it was in that phaze.. not too long..not too short?.. does anybody no what im talking about?.. its like.. hairy limbo.. u cant do shit with it..it sucked..so.. i cut it off.. kinda like it..hehe

ima go to irvine in a few...play with the website.. ive been goin to irvine a lot lately..bothering jello.. i shood stop.. im prolly messing up her goal to become a hermit.. or was it a hobbit.. anyhoo..ive been playing at her house with her and her roomies and friends..pretty hilarious..them irvine pples crack me up.. gotta love em...

ok..gonna go clog some arteries with burritos.. yeah!! FART

2002-02-16T01:57:00.000-08:00

so i had a great thurs nite.. it was pretty awesome.. yeah ok..it was valentines day..but besides the fact.. i had a greeeeaaaaat night.. me jello daoballs and our good friend thourn, all went out.. on a ...i guess u could call it a ..date.. heee heee.. but yeah.. we all got dressed up.. i showed up with flowers. i even cut my hair..(by myself of course)... and slicked back the spikes... ya heard... hehe.. it was cool.. we went to macaronni grill.. only thing that sucked was the wait..but we made the best of it.. we laughed at people..jello and daoballs were jockin guys o course.. well.. dinner was ok.. not the GREATEST.. but good enuff...we got crayons to draw on the table.. we all drew some anti valentines stuff... and just joked around... we were laughing soo hard.. people (couples..YACK!!) were stairing at us.. prolly thinking of stuff like.. o gawd.. our perfect night.. ruined.. .. KISS MY ASS BIATCH!!..anyway......our waitress was pretty cute..she could rite upside down.. shit.. thas a real woman..and she was working on valentines..hell yeah..makin money..not spending that shit....hahaha....after dinner.. i dropped off a red envelope at my bros....from my mom.. and then we went to jellos pad.. we chilled for a bit..then started drinking.. which wasnt the best idea..on a full stomach...ack.. ... i barely took 2 shots..b4 i regurgetated(SP) my dinner..waste of money haha.. but yeah.. pretty disgusting..i think it was all the laughing and dancing..i took a "power nap" and then came down stairs and we all watched tv.. oh..and i think it was lynn (jellos roomate) 's friends.. daniel and alex... they were over as well..and friggin alex was hilarious..the whole night..dude had jokes for everything.. it was soo funny.. he morphed into craig david.. and was hitting on jello.. haha.. funny shit like that...we ended up going to bed at 5 am... fuck.. i was knocked the fuck out on the stair well... but later migrated to the "crevice" between jellos and her roomies bed.. basically..i slept on the floor....haha....all in all.. i had a great nite.. thanx all u pples...it was a good valentines.. but still......cupid can still kiss my ass...HAHA

2002-02-13T02:50:00.000-08:00

aghhhh.. naps are sooo good in the afternoon.. but sometimes.. u miss the nap..and u do it in the evening. which ..at the time..seemed like a good idea..but now.. now.. at 2:30 in the morning.. ure fucked..well at least i am.. i cant sleep for the life of me.. im soo awake..wtf do i do???.. i gotta take my sis to school in the morning..im soo screwed............

oh yeah...... last week.. on saturday.. this guy rearends me on the 405s.... so now i got a big ass scratch on my shit.. his insurance is gonna pay for it.. nobody was hurt.. hmm..thas all that i gotta say bout that.. (it seemed more dramatic when it happened)

oh.. that company that we designed the logos for..has picked one out of the 13 we presented.. it is now time for the website..yes.. i am designing a website.. i hope it turns out tight..im not gonna say anything just yet.. i dont wanna jinx my shit..ya heard?!..but all i no..is that ima git paid this yr..

its chinese new yr!!. its the year of the horse.. neigh....

this is a good year so far..im happy..im full of joy.. woot wooo

oh yeah FUCK VALENTINES DAY!!.. haha.. im gittin drunk with part of the izl squad.. singles only.. sorry voballs.. u got a girl.. haha.. cupid can..suck deez.. YA HEARD?!.. hahahahahhahaha

2002-02-09T00:44:00.000-08:00

ok.. so tomorrow i have to go meet with these people.. i am working with.... and ima show them some logos i designed for them.. and if they like it..and like our presentation..then im set .... and ima have a new business partner.. wouldnt that be......nifty..heeheh.. wish me luck world...

i went to knotts today... with voballs and his gf..and his gf's roomate and her bf...and daoballs went too..yeah.. so if u count me..that was 6 people.. 2 couples and 2 singles..hehe.. but my friends are dope..when theyre couples..they dont act all...coupleee... theyre regular..no mushy mushy shit..no.. touchy feely crap in line..a lil holding hands n stuff..but not all of that..make everybody around u that is single depressed kind of pda.. it was a fun day.. knotts sucks..haha..sucks fat balls..some of the rides were ok.. but.. y eah overall.. its small... hehe.. vo had free tix..and he didnt wanna waste them..so he got us to go..hehehehe.. but yeah.. i rode supreme scream.. i lost my balls on that ride.. its somewhere right b4 the drop.. and whatever was left was pretty much crunched at the end.. they need to redo that chair they got goin there..argh.. yeah.. knotts was cool....it was fun to kick it with daoballs again..i sure missed her..

jello coodnt make it today..something about..midterms..or some kind of school related crap.. haha.. (maybe a boy).. i dunno.. but she wasnt there today..and me and daoballs missed her..so..we drove out to irvine to pay her a suprise visit..it wasa really sleepy mood today at her house...she was gittin ready to go party....two of her roomates..lynn and hai..had already left...(thas prolly why it was sleepy.. lynn usually bumps music when were there...)..and her and her roomie crystal were changing n stuff.. (jello had a naked shirt).. but yeah..me n daoballs kicked it..it was coo.. its always coo to visit jello...and even tho we just sat around and did shit..it was good..cuz i mean..u cant kick it with 3 out of 4 of the crew..the IZL SQUAD.. and pass up a visit to the 4th one... naw.. hell naw.. so yeah..jello completed my day..haha..then me n daoballs left when they left to party..we went on a bolba(SP) run..good shit.. hehe.. i aint gone lie..i got lost..goin home.. jello said.. left on walnut..right on culver... i think she meant.. left on walnut..right on jeffery..right on culver..well..anyway..i got on a freeway..a toll road..and basically..i saw too damn much of big ass irvine..=P

yawn.. ok..gotta rest up..big day tomorrow......=D

2002-02-07T19:47:00.000-08:00

wtf... ok.. a guy jus walked up to my gate with a dog jumping and banging on it (i remind u that i have a german shepard that likes to EAT strangers ).. and rings my doorbell..and even after he talks to my uncle..who doesnt speak english..he still doesnt git the hint...and im like..what the fuck..who are u looking for again?(not in those words of coures).. "uh..is shiela home"..WTF?!..look at my face boy... do i look like im related to a shiela??.. im chinese man... we dont name our babies shiela.. i wouldnt even name my dawg shiela..im like..naw theres no shiela here man... hes like..what?!!.. im like..were chinese.....and he was just confused.. .. wha?.. like..it never occured to him that his search for shiela has led him to a house with asian people in it..and that maybe... just maybe..it was the RONG FUCKIN HOUSE!.gawd..some pple..i swear..... hick with a mustache.. and a cap .hmm... prolly related to that shoe bomber guy.. or that lady that put superglue in her daughters eye.... stupid people ....shood just give them Al quadia T-shirts..and shoot em....